KATANAJADE SUICIDE

managing to manifest water signs back into my life

I totally miss the rain for some things. For the first time in a long time I am actually wanting the sun to go away. It’s like a constant reminder to get up and keep moving when all I want is to lay in bed and sit still while the rain washes everything away. It’s an odd thing to admit. My decision to skip winter is probably one of the worst in a long time.

I’m not one to hold onto negative energy or bad feelings. I have reached zero capacity to be dealing with negative energy around me or holding onto me. I forgive. I move on. I move forward. I don’t become bitter, I don’t become cold. I don’t let the pain I have experienced keep me from being who I am. I will always be warm. I’ll always be giving and I’ll always have more love to give, especially when those I care about need it. I understand that the energy you put out is the energy you recieve. I understand that you are who you surround yourself with. I understand now that sometimes the healthiest thing is to do whatever’s best for you and walk away from people who try to keep you down. You can’t help those who don’t want to be helped. You can’t show people how to take care of themselves first if you don’t lead by example.

mmm ok for sure meeting my soul mate today

Do you ever look around and see what’s around you? People they will come and go, but it’s a two way street. You get to choose. You always do. So who do you choose? I find myself attracting the wildest souls. The type you know will write some crazy memoirs and create breath taking art because they wore their big pure fiery hearts on their sleeve, poured it out on the floor and let people walk over them. They still forgave. The type of people when you look in their eyes, they tell you they’re gonna change the world, a light of empowerment flickers, and instantly you believe them. My cellphone is constantly going off with phone calls and messages from people who care about me and are constantly checking up on me. I do the same. I appreciate that. I appreciate all of you angels who choose me. I choose you too. I got angels all around me. Nothing can touch me. But this post ain’t about me. It’s a reminder that what you put out always comes back to you. So let go of negative energy. Hold on to your values, your beliefs, and what is important. Who is important? Do what you think is right. And once you realize what you have is enough, you’ll start to realize you too can manifest anything. Everything. What’s stopping you? You attract what you are. Yesterday is old news. Shit, I’m human ☠️ Everybody fucks up. But what matters now is who you are today and who you’re aiming to be tomorrow. Learn from your mistakes. Take accountability for your words/actions.

I’m taken back already by someone who knows nothing about me and I find it odd, he’s looking for what I’m looking for. I haven’t shared anything with him. I’ve been completely distant. I’m legitimately scared that I’m going to meet the person I’ve been asking God to give me.