Little by little

I haven't written here for a while. Life kept me busy and to be honest I still feel like I don't have much time for myself.

I've got a well paid job, the accomodation and people there are also not bad, to be honest I think from all the jobs I had this one is the best.

Still, the job is nice, after it I could do a lot of things for myself, but the problem is that I don't know what to do.

When I was in the middle school or high school I had so much passion in me. I wrote on my blog all my thoughts, made small articles about the events that happened in my town or the city near by. I loved art and being sorrounded by it. Now, I do still love art, love seeing it, experiencing it. The thing is I feel like I don't have so much time, not only to go to some events or exhibitions but simply to share it with another people. Also I don't know how to share it. My writting skills are not so good as it used to be.

And I l know that I should not be so hard for myself. I should simply try and learn while making some errors and mistakes. I should be little kinder and just simply try.

And I'm really trying. I slowly started going back to the gym, to have some movement in my life. I've started reading a book and I do enjoy it, slowly, like really slowly, I'm back to writing my own things. To be honest that part is the most scary one.

For me writing always was about being honest. Not only when I wrote my thoughts about the day I had or what I had experienced. The honesty should be also in the writtien story I want to share, even if it's fiction. Sometimes the honesty felt heavy for me, it still does. And right now I'm doing my best to try and write again with the same honesty I have write long time ago.

Probably it's going to be hard and long process but that's okay. Step by step.

The most important I need to find myself from now on. Take my time to look for what I like and dislike, what now makes me happy.

But I needed some time for myself to recover to find again this little spark in me that it's going to keep me going.

Wasn't easy, after that one alcohol incident but I think I'm fine now.

I went for a walk, saw some beautiful art exhibitions, had a blast seeing them and i felt so full of happiness.

So we can say I'm slowly recovering. Sept by step but I'm good.