Yoo is not you, Yoo is me

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🎯The atmosphere, the weather, the locations.

The first season has a lot of shots of leaves, trees, or the way the leaves fall from the trees...🍂 I love the wonderful little details on the pavement, like puddles, or when it's raining, or when it's a little cloudy, or sunny days. Such a lovely autumn! I also love the way they dress👜

🎯The plot.

I thought this would be a series about endless relationship intrigue, terrible lies, and something like that. But it turned out to be a detective story, somewhere with us, a mystical nature, so dark and pleasant at the same time. The series exceeded my expectations!🤌

🎯The main characters.

They are very lively, they open up, they are the most ordinary girls. There's no set pattern: super-mega-popular girls who are athletic cheerleaders or super-duper straight-A students, extremely resentful or cruel monsters.

What they look like, how they dress, how they communicate and with whom, what personal problems they have—none of it is exaggerated.

The girls are all different, and each can find themselves in their overall image or in each individual character.

🎯Interesting characters.

Their friends, their parents, their family. I like that there are not only very young people but also adults, more mature ones. There are problems in relationships, at work, in self-fulfillment. It's very important when we can look at certain events from the perspective of a child, a teenager, or an adult. Special families: special conflicts, where there are very different parents and very different children. 🎭

I send my love from the bottom of my heart to the legendary Prince of Darkness. He was a brilliant artist and musician, a man who showed what rebellion is and what a full life is, that everything changes and the main thing is to find joy in what you do and do what makes you happy. He is immortal. Ozzy Osbourne.

"Jumanji" is one of the films that I have watched and loved since childhood. I had different attitudes towards this movie, I was even a little afraid to watch it for some period. But I have always been interested in watching it. I added this film to my "nice choice" list on Letterboxd.

The cast is wonderful. When I rewatched this film the other day, I suddenly thought about Robin Williams. What a wonderful actor he is! All his roles in the films I have watched were always played superbly. I began to feel a sense of something familiar and close to him, not even out of habit but because he is very disposed to himself (even if he plays a slightly scary character). I am so glad that he became an actor and I was able to see his work!

About the film. In the beginning children lie a lot about their parents, they keep their distance from literally everyone. Alan is the first adult with whom they were so open and trusted him.

When Alan returned, he immediately began looking for his parents. This scene may seem a little funny I guess... still it's a hard moment for me. That's when Alan's world collapses but he quickly comes to his senses and is no longer afraid to take responsibility. He's been running away for too long, now he's ready to strike back.

The fourth man's turn. Sarah. Psychic readings.

- I'm that boy, Sarah.

- Alan...

- You killed her!

After an unsuccessful game of Jumanji, Sarah became actively involved in esotericism, psychology, spirituality and other practices. As a child Sarah seemed more strict and "adult" to me. You know, the stereotypical image of a boring adult. As I got older my opinion of Sarah changed. She was really on the same wavelength as Alan. Alan who came back. Alan who was already a grown man whose inner child was breaking out. Alan for whom age labels did not exist.

"I spent so much energy to summon your spirit"

Sarah's phrases that could not leave me indifferent. I really know how much energy it costs and these are not empty words at all...

- Any last words?

- Jumanji.

The end of the film is very kind, heartwarming. But to some extent frightening. For me. Sometimes time scares me and I experience existential horror. Probably because of such ambiguous feelings I did not include "Jumanji" in the list of my favorite films.

I was very pleased to see Alan again with his parents, how he hugged his father and admitted his mistake.

My favourite moments:

⚡️After receiving messages from the Upside Downn Dustin quickly figured out where to look for the portal and made it in time. That epic moment when he cut through the exit!

⚡️Dustin's speech about Eddie. How he told Uncle Eddie that he was a real hero and saved not only his friends and the town, but the whole world.

⚡️When Max wrote her farewell letters. How she handed them out, hugged her mom for the last time, and sat at Billy's grave... It was a very powerful moment when Vekna took over her mind and all her "shadows" came out. Later she confirms Vekna's words and accepts both the shadow and the light within herself. She loved her brother, she hated him; she wanted him out of her life, but with his death, a part of Max herself died.

⚡️When Eddie said that he had been running away all the time and wanted to run away again, but followed the guys. From that moment on he no longer ran away (I wanted to shout "Run!"). I think Eddie revealed himself quite well as a character in one season but I would like to see more of him. I'll also add about his admiration for Nancy!

⚡️Lucas became Lucas again. At the beginning of the season he couldn't find his place, he was confused about his desires and dreams. When trouble befell his friends, the old Lucas returned and now he was much more confident and responsible.

⚡️When Eddie came to the meeting to sell something, his cheeky image changed to that of a sweet, funny guy who remembers all the little things and all the warm moments.

My favourite moments:

🍭11 and Max's friendship. They finally got to enjoy girlies friendship. It was a first for both of them which made the moments with these two even more special.

🍭Steve and Robin's conversation in the bathroom. Revelations that we all needed so badly. I also really liked their style this season. The uniforms were incredibly beautiful.

🍭"Suzie is perfect." Dustin's admiration, delight, and infatuation with Suzie! How he talks about her, how he believes in her, how he sings that song at such a dangerous moment. They were very cute. And I immediately believed in Suzie's existence!

🍭When Billy's consciousness began to fade and he came to his senses, how he looked at the children and sacrificed himself to save them all. Billy was a good kid, it's a shame his story ended so soon.

🍭Hopper's letter to 11. No comment. I'll attach the letter here...

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There's something I've been wanting to talk to you both about. I know this is a difficult conversation, but I care about you both very much. And I know that you care about each other very much, and that's why it's important that we set these boundaries moving forward so we can build an environment where we all feel comfortable, trusted, and open to sharing our feelings.

Feelings.

Jesus. The truth is, for so long I'd forgotten what those even were. I've been stuck in one place. In a cave, you might say. A deep, dark cave. And then I left some Eggos out in the woods and you came into my life. For the first time in a long time, I started to feel things again. I started to feel happy. But lately, I guess I've been feeling distant from you. Like you're pulling away from me or something. I miss playing board games every night, making triple decker Eggo extravaganzas at sunrise, watching Westerns together before we doze off.

But I know you're getting older, growing, changing. I guess, if I'm being really honest, that's what scares me. I don't want things to change. So I think maybe that's why I came in here, to try and make stop that change. To turn back the clock. To make things go back to how they were. But I know that's naive. It's just not how life works. It's moving, always moving, whether you like it or not. And yeah, sometimes it's painful. Sometimes it's sad. And sometimes, it's surprising. Happy.

So you know what? Keep on growing up kid. Don't let me stop you. Make mistakes, learn from 'em. When life hurts you, because it will, remember the hurt. The hurt is good. It means you're out of that cave. But, please, if you don't mind, for the sake of your poor old dad, keep the door open three inches.

I found a notebook in which I wrote letters to Spike and why he is so cool❤️‍🩹

Klaus: I will not have my hand forced by you or anyone else!

Caroline: What is wrong with you? I'm reaching out to you despite everything that you've done, and you still can't get out of your own way. God! I feel sorry for you.

Klaus: Don't turn your back on me!

Caroline: I should have turned my back on you ages ago!

Klaus: It's gone.

Caroline: What?

Klaus: The pain. The pain is gone. It was-it was never there. He got in my head. Silas... got inside my head. You took my mind off it. You brought me back, Caroline.

How do you think that you deserve my friendship when you've done nothing to earn it?

Words that make you realize that Caroline is no longer that insecure girl who tried to earn any kind of attention. Finally this girl knows her worth😢

I feel the manifestation! How they manifest and all conventions simply disappear. It's a meeting of two inner children. They found each other by being themselves, these flashes of emotion, desires. In their tandem I see a moment, the present. Their state here and now. I feel it, I don't know how well I can convey it in words.

I think many people are attracted to this couple because of this feature. Klaus is just Klaus who feels alive, he doesn't adapt or try to change anyone or anything. So is Caroline, she is free with him. Each of them is on their own wavelength and doesn't play any role.

I really love moments that may seem trivial but are very meaningful to me.

The scene where Klaus was angry and at that moment Caroline came to him annoyed about the dress. We see a terrifying original vampire in a rage and a girl who is furious about a dress. Then Klaus immediately softens and even likes it. And I understand why. Because it was a sincere expression of Caroline's state of mind, her feelings and thoughts, her values and reactions which were not "filtered" but flowed naturally. Yes, she was just being herself first and foremost and Klaus loved that. I think that's what motivated him to live authentically and that's why he was so drawn to Caroline.

My favourite moments:

🌻When the parents took photos of the children on Halloween! Their Ghostbusters costumes were very cute and suited the children well. For me this moment set the tone for the season.

🌻When 11 found her mother. She had come such a long way and finally met her. Their meeting was important and necessary. 11 behaved very maturely!

🌻The appearance of the Hargrove family. What a great performance! From the very first seconds it was clear what Billy and Max were all about. Their movements, their looks, their aura.

🌻Will's chaotic drawing and Joyce's renewed understanding. I admire their bond! I would also like to mention Bob, a wonderful character.

🌻Dustin and D'Artagnan. When Dustin fed him one last time and he let them pass.

🌻Their dances at the end of the season were cute!

In "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" the first seasons were brighter and reminded me of warm summer days. And then the night began.

My favourite moments:

🌈Will and Joyce communicating through light bulbs. How Joyce immediately believed in miracles and found a way to talk to her son. Her faith, trust and love💔 Even when the whole world was against her and didn't understand her, she never doubted.

🌈When 11 ran into the cafe and the man didn't chase her away but gave her a food, sincerely trying to understand and help the girl. I thought he would turn out to be a more indifferent and malicious character so I was glad to see the good moments at the very beginning. It's a shame he didn't survive.

🌈When Steve came face to face with something supernatural for the first time. He didn't run away in fear, shock and confusion. Yes, he clearly didn't understand what was happening but that didn't stop him from helping his friends in such a terrifying situation. Especially since he and Jonathan clearly weren't on the best of terms at the time.

🌈Nancy's determination. She went through a tough internal conflict in the first season. Even before the "other side" appeared in her life she was fighting — fighting with herself: values, boundaries, society. After her friend's death, everything changed for her completely. Nevertheless, she was able to choose her own path and blossomed into a true heroine in the next seasons.

🌈When the police chief took the investigation seriously and didn't leave the case unsolved due to a lack of information and strange circumstances. Of course, in the end he becomes one of the main characters but at first he's just a "cop" to us. He saw the case through to the end and gained a lot.

🌈For the children their parents' and the police's ban did not stop them from sitting around and doing nothing when their friend went missing. They boldly began their own search and were not afraid to face difficulties. They believed that Will was alive, and they were devoted to each other with all their hearts and souls.

Caroline and Klaus are one of my favorite couples in the The Vampire Diaries. I like these characters individually as well. Even though they didn't stay together, the moments with them were unforgettable and heartwarming. Despite the fact that Klaus was far from a good hero at the beginning and did so many cruel things, he never became a villain in Caroline's story.

Klaus is an original vampire, a hybrid who is very old. He loves to learn and create, he still knows how to enjoy life, and he is full of feelings. Of course, he had enough time and other resources to achieve everything in the material world and beyond. He still had eternity in reserve...

Caroline is a young girl who has only recently become a vampire, who was so far removed from anything supernatural. She dreamed of winning competitions, going to college, having good friends, and marrying the guy of her dreams; she just wanted to be happy!

At the time she was dating Tyler, a new-werewolf who was on the same wave as Caroline. Their worlds were close to each other; they were not strangers to each other. They could clearly imagine a future together and live carefree in their present. But with Klaus, everything was different for her. Klaus is another world, he is beyond the limits, he is unknown and alluring. As I have already noted, despite Klaus's villainy Caroline was not in danger with him. Even if he let her out of his hands he would soon catch her, not allowing her to be harmed.

I am currently rewatching The Vampire Diaries and have come to the following conclusion. In most cases, when our feelings are unrequited and a person chooses someone else over us, we involuntarily begin to compare ourselves and think the worst of ourselves. But real? In the example with Caroline, Klaus, and Tyler, we see that Klaus is no worse than Tyler. He is not weaker, not stupider, not less handsome, not less rich, not less successful in life and so on. By society's standards he even surpasses Tyler in every way. So we see that Caroline's choice is Caroline's choice. There are no measurements, comparisons, or anything else here. Caroline admitted that she had feelings for Klaus and that something even happened between them but she made her choice. Because it was better for her, it was her.

If something similar happens in your life, don't corner yourself, don't humiliate yourself and don't compare yourself to others because it makes no sense. It will never make anyone happy. And everyone wants happiness so don't be afraid to choose your own happiness.

In "The Originals" Klaus and Caroline met again. Klaus was the same as ever except now he was a father. Caroline was now a grown woman who had experienced many tragedies, become a mother of two children, a widow, and the founder of a boarding school for super children.

(I'd like to mention the trilogy "Before...". If their first meeting took place like Sunrise, then the last one took place before Midnight).

They both realized a lot during this time. Even for Klaus, a thousand-year-old hybrid, life appeared in a completely different light and this short time turned out to be much more valuable than hundreds of other years.

A special bond remained between them; now they understood each other better and had more in common.

I was very happy when I found out that they had met again after so many years! Caroline remained a very important figure in Klaus's life and their meeting in his final days meant so much — both to them and to the audience.

You take the man out of the city, not the city out the man

You take the man out of the city, not the city out the man

You take the man out of the city, not the city out the man