lenzey loses weight

Small weight loss this week, but still a loss!  Glad since I "cheated" several times, but was always under my 1390 calorie mark and still exercised.

CW: 194.4! (-.4lb)

-8.6lbs in 16 days

HW: 203 GW: 170

24.4 lbs to go (under 25!) 31 weeks remaining

Cheat day tomorrow and I already have my cheat meals planned.

One involves chic-fil-a

The other involved cookie dough Oreos

and ending the night at a prom for Graduate School-- so lots of gin!

Nothing like realizing a tiny misspelled word in your resume after you send it out.

Weighed myself this morning on a whim--

down to 195.8! that's -7.2 lbs in 9 days!

I've moved my calorie intake from 1600 to eating approximately 1300 per day (no bread products/ pasta), plus Faturday Saturday (cheat day!!) and working out for 35-40 minutes moderate/ intense cardio (elliptical or stationary bike) for 7 of those 9 days.

Happy to announce that I am a solid week down as far as tracking calories!

I have been under my cal goal of 1600 every day (changed goal down to 1300 2 days ago). Cheat day was epic due to visiting my brother and his wife at Purdue. I think I was 1,000 calories over-- almost all of those came from eating out and beer!  Ah good, delicious times.  Not so good times at the end of the day. My body now doesn't know what to do with large amounts of carbs and I always inevitably end up in the bathroom, sick as a dog.

The past 4 days, I've burned an average of 380 cal per day at the gym doing cardio.

HW: 203 CW: 197.8 (-5.2) GW: 170

27.8 lbs and 32 weeks to go!

Last night, Mom expressed a big worry that we didn't go the two sizes up when we ordered the wedding dress. I told her not to worry about that, 1 size will be more than enough.  She didn't seem too sure.  I know I've tried and failed at weight loss before-- but this time feels different.  I'm in my new life with my new job, fiance, I've got a new eating plan and have come to terms with emotional eating... there's way more helping me along for success this time around!

If you have a myfitnesspal account, friend me! Username name is linszoh.  You can see my progress, exercise and food diary!

CW: 198.6 (-4.4 lbs)

HW: 203 GW: 170

28.6 lbs to go!

Currently exercising 4-5 times a week-- moderate/intense cardio, 30 minutes.  Low carb, calorie counting 6 days a week-- cheat days are on Saturday.  AKA "Saturday Faturday"

My motivation for getting on the eliptical/ bike each time: It's the only opportunity I have to read The Song of Ice and Fire series!  Otherwise I'm cooking, cleaning, working or spending time with my fiance.  When I'm reading that (I'm currently halfway through the third book), the time flies by.

This was one of the photos that I saw from our engagement session and realized... I need to get this under control while it's not overwhelming.  It's not a bad picture, and I'm not saying I look bad in it. 

It's simply I noticed that my face has never looked rounder, my dress never fit as tight and I remember thinking while he was taking the photos I know I look fat, I know I look fat... All of that was fueled by the thought that I didn't deserve to be happy because I wasn't exercising or watching my food. I was binging on alcohol and candy and starchy foods almost every day.  I'd just spent the summer avoiding the beach and pools because I didn't feel comfortable.

I don't want to be thinking this on my wedding day. I want to be thinking, I know I look good.  And this will come from sticking with taking care of myself and respecting my health.  Even if I don't some how make my goal, I will feel better about myself and proud of the fact that I'm doing what I need to to be healthy.

Just some thoughts on a Thursday.

I reached a milestone in my life this past weekend.  I found my perfect wedding dress!

As soon as I was laced up (corset-style) and barely breathing, I walked out of the dressing room to stand in front of my family and the tri-mirrors.

It was perfect. I looked pretty good in it already, it's a very flattering dress and shows off my hourglass.  My mother cried, my maid of honor cooed and my best friend love it.  He said I have a pin-up shape.

My biggest hang up was my arms and my back.  They are, simply, flabby.  It was about 1.5 sizes too small, but my goal is to fit into that size.  It was about a size 10.  I'm usually between 12 and 14.  We ordered a 12 for the wedding, but I'm determined to have that dress taken in when it's time for the wedding!  Size 10 is my goal.

Between now and then, I will lose about 30lbs in 30 weeks.  This is so attainable--- I feel SO good about it.

I will weigh myself when I get home to get more specific numbers

Tools that are helping me:

Emotional Eater's Repair Manual - Julie Simon (I will write a review soon) The 4 Hour Chef - Tim Ferris (low carb/ no carb, high protein 6 days, one cheat day) Resistance bands Apartment gym

Him: *pinches my arm really f*ckin hard*

Me: OUCH!

Him: Well you aren't thinking about the cramps anymore, are you?

Learning what it means to be hungry today.

For the first time in awhile, I didn't have any breakfast. Yes, yes, this is fitblr sacrilege-- but I simply didn't have time.

I noticed it an hour after getting to work. Without my hard boiled egg, my stomach was growling.  I was unfocused and so tired.

As soon as 11 hit, I hi-tailed it across to the cafe and grabbed some mixed nuts.

The best (weird) thing is-- I'm relearning what it means to be hungry by not snacking. True, this was a deprivation. But my snacking has gotten far better these last weeks as I learn to listen to my body and stop feeding my boredom/ emotions etc.