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i think when u clean your house it should stay clean forever. what do u mean i have to do it again

thinking a lot about journaling & journaling systems. i’ve been rereading the collected journals of writers i love (susan sontag in particular) and texts on writing by other writers i love (joan didion and bell hooks im looking at you!) and wondering how the simple act of taking pen to paper has become so so complicated. perhaps it’s due to marketing and hyperconsumerism, but journaling has become an activity more about the stationery themselves rather than the act. and i absolutely love stationery, i love my fountain pens and the wonderful experiencing of writing on creamy midori md paper. but i have been so focused on the materials, of perfecting a journaling system with the perfect pens, notebooks, and accessories, rather than the actual action of journaling, of writing to know what i think, paraphrased from didion.

do not ask me if im the loyal type i will attach myself to u like an evil entity

don't ever look up what your childhood friends are up to now!!!!!!!!!! like girl you're a nuclear safety engineer. i put on matching socks today. we played tag a thousand years ago.

sometimes…… when you keep testing people to see if they will leave…. they will leave…… sometimes… people will leave you… because you’re a bad person…. sometimes people will leave for no reason…. sometimes people will leave because you expect too much from them… sometimes you might need to acknowledge… that friends aren’t your therapist… and did not go through 12 years of training to handle your meltdowns… and you need to find a way to reasonably communicate when you’re feeling unwell if you really like this person, trust this person, and want them to stay around you… having a fear of abandonment cannot be something you tell them to lock them into your orbit.. you need to take responsibility for the things you say & how you treat people… its that simple

early to bed and early to rise leaves a man so fucked up that he dies

good news. the things that used to upset me no longer upset me. bad news. i'm creating an army of bugs to hurt innocent bystanders

Type shi I'd do if I was a beekeeper