Im fascinated by the idea that other people can do things right or wrong socializing with you that affect your level of social interest in them. Obviously I get it to a point but , unjustly, I pretty much will tolerate absolutely anything from people i insane style love , a great deal from people i like a lot in a normal sane way, and virtually nothing from anyone else. I can objectively evaluate how much someones behavior aligns with my values and make myself behave as consistently as i can but in a very real way i pretty rarely actually care THAT much about anything objectionable people im crazy about do unless its to each other. i experience "liking people" as basically metaphysical and about 80% untethered in any straightforward way from any specific action or speech. It feels cosmically preordained
