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Pale blue eyes would narrow once the words reached Ryokenâs ears â and the question how he had managed to communicate his feelings this badly arose once more in his head. Him struggling with words and emotions was unbeknownst to no one, but still. When had it gotten to this point?Â
âYou⊠have your own room, I made sure of it. We also have a kitchen and a⊠some kind of a living room. Itâs not the best, I am aware. This is nothing but a temporary solution. Iâll fix this, all of this.â
Ryoken pulled at Spectreâs arm, trembling fingers digging into the poplin fabric of his grey vest. It was a plea for Spectre to finally step away from the rail â Ryoken himself failed to notice how he was holding onto the younger teenâs arm for dear life, fearing this being the next inevitable tragedy: losing his childhood friend, his one and only.
Ryoken had already lost his father due to his own mistakes and had left Kyoko in prisonâs grasp. He couldnât lose anyone else. Not now and not anytime soon. What exactly was Spectre even thinking? Did he truly believe Ryoken didnât want him in his life anymore? Â
âCome back inside, Spectre. Please. I didnât⊠mean it like that, IâŠâ
Ryoken swallowed the lump in his throat, words dissolving on his tongue. He couldnât say it â could neither explain nor comprehend what he was thinking. All he could was pull on Spectreâs arm again, silently begging him to stay, stay with me, donât leave. There was nothing but sorrow, fear and guilt tormenting his heart. And Ryoken didnât want to be weak, either. For his father, he wanted to be stronger than ever, and yetâŠ
Quietly he was listening to the other ones words, eyes out on the ocean, while he still felt the others arms around him. Kinda...grounding. It proved that Ryoken really was here. That this wasn't a dream or a nightmare.
"It's not your responsibility to fix this." he spoke up eventually. Decided not to comment on the rest of the other's words, as it wasn't quiet what had mattered here. Ryoken had told him to leave. Not to leave him alone and maybe it was stupid, but for him, who had been send away, left behind so often it was a rather important difference.
For a moment he stayed silent, even though ocec Ryoken mentioned he hadn't meant it like that, when Ryoken asked him to come back inside. If Spectre was honest to himself than he actually preferred staying out here. With the endless ocean around the space seemed endless too. Free. Royken was right when he was saying their current situation wasn't the best, was only temporary. And they had to work with the little they still had but that boat really was small and small rooms never had been something Spectre could easily deal with.
But Ryoken was asking him...
A sigh left his lips, before he eventually allowed himself to relax slightly, to lean against the body of his friend behind him.
I feel like I'm suffocating down there...
But again, those words didn't leave his lips. Instead he turned his head slightly towards the other one.
"As you wish. But please stop making all of this your responsibility. You need to take care of yourself too. If you'd die..."
There's nothing I'd have left.












