I JUST WANT YOU TO LISTEN ... I was anorexic and suicidal, I tried to kms and I was clinically dead. I had to be resuscitated several times. I hated myself, I felt so disgusted by myself, I always thought I was too fat, too ugly, I hated food and myself… I starved, purged, binged… I just wanted to feel seen. I saw myself failing in everything, and all of this drove me into hopelessness, I just wanted to disappear and starve until I die... Then I overdosed because it only drove me to death.
But I survived through Jesus Christ, the living God. He still heals me and shows me who I really am. I know that if I tell you “You are good enough, don’t starve, it’s unhealthy” you will roll your eyes… I KNOW! I was anorexic too and comments like these made me so angry bc I loved my ed. I wanted to feel fragil, petite, tiny, skinny… I wanted to look sick, I wanted to see and feel my bones, I spent all day long on Tumblr watching “th*nsp0/MeanSp0”… Trust me I know how you feel... It's dark, painful and a battle with yourself even if it doesn't feel like it but more like getting high.
You are my Sister, my Brother, and I love you. But there is someone who loves you so much more and He knows you. He sees your battles—the starving, the tears, the hate and it hurts him sm… It's Jesus, he is waiting for you and He wants to heal you.
All the thoughts that you’re not thin enough, you’re ugly, a pig, a dog, not sick enough … these are not your thoughts, my friend. This is the enemy—he wants to destroy you, because he knows who you really are. But you are not weak. You are a Child of God—that’s your true identity and that's holy.
Jesus died for your sins because He looked at you with pure Love, so dont throw your life away, you are His, he went through the pain for you. He gave you life. We were made to love, not to destroy ourselves and hurt others. He wants to give YOU everything, and He is already waiting for you to come back. But it’s YOUR FREE WILL whether you follow God or the devil… Right now the devil holds u, but Jesus is waiting and he's not angry at you bc he wants to give u Rest, He wants to hold you in his Arms, He wants to give u everything. The devil wants to see you dead, just like he led me to death. But Jesus wants to see you in Heaven. He wants to give you love, freedom, peace. He wants to see you smile... not bc of pain but because of deep faith/peace/joy and pure Love.
I know you are probably dizzy, weak, sad, scared, or frustrated rn. I don’t force you—I invite you. I know you feel comfortable in the darkness because the flesh is weak. I just ask you: call on Jesus’ name, and if you are truly willing to follow Him, He will change your life naturally. I don't tell you that you have to be perfect or heald yeah ik u probably don't want to be heald and it's okay, I just ask you gently to GO to your Father. Stay in His love and you will feel it.. Trust me GOD’S LOVE is something else and I want you to experience this! So come as you are.
You are my Sister/Brother, and I want you to experience this kind of love. Just talk to Him, follow Him, believe, read His Word, and He will give you the Kingdom of God, love, peace and a new, a better life than this. I know you are full of Hate, but you know what I see in you? I see a little Girl/Boy who feels so hurt, broken, alone, sad, unseen ... listen my Friend... you need your creator, someone who holds you, someone who wipes away your tears and revives your heart someone who understands you and you're pain, better than you do. This someone is only your LORD
He is already waiting… look, He’s coming back soon… and then it’s too late to go back to him. He wants to save you from Hell, thats why he died for you... never stop believing and talk to your FATHER!
When I woke up from my coma, I was deeply touched by Jesus. I know you’re going through so much suffering, but you are a daughter/son of God. You are worth more and stronger than the enemy... This world has made darkness the norm, but you have worth. God makes no mistakes in his creation. He even counted the hairs on your head and your Body is the Tempel of the Holy Spirit! This is your sign to finally return to the light. You've been in darkness long enough. You deserve comfort, love, and a guiding hand, which you'll find in your LORD and SAVIOR: JESUS CHRIST ! Follow HIM, and you will be saved. ❤️🕊
