🎀💒 Lilith 💒🎀

I would clown on his ass about it and ask him all about the weird stuff that happens there.

He’ll deny it at first until you bring up his drivers license and laugh at it.

I created a group of OC’ who are college cheerleaders for a dbd story i was working on a while ago and i lowky started crying.

I like to believe it’s cuz of trauma from being bullied and dropped from my old groups which i thought were my ride or die.

I felt like these girls were based on random people who i admired from afar and that longing for girlhood again.

(Sometimes i cry when i pass by a group of girls and wished i had one again)

Anyways…

If he didn’t shove the referee and stayed on the team. He may have been a star athlete, but also the stereotypical annoying jock that also bullies people and causes trouble.

I can hear him breaking out into a musical number and dancing around while your screaming in pain or tied up.

I cant sleep and I’m scared.

I was really happy and really wanted to get it. My bf let out a loud surprise yell that it was $20 for something so small which made me a little discouraged to not get it at all.

It was the last one so i just said fuck it Im getting it cuz i love the legion and i like the art. Also one of my favorite comic artist, Luana Vecchio drew an illustration of Susie and Julie and it was so cool.

In the water i feel like a mermaid.

In the wind i feel like a fairy or superhero

If I’m in a white dress i look like a ghost.

I like it when it blows in the wind.

Yes when i brush and comb it, It does get annoying but it makes me feel like a doll. The same dolls i use to play with when i was younger. Paired with dressing up and getting ready. It makes me feel like myself again,

I love and hate it and the same time.

It just slowly creeps into my mind and i end up diving into the hole once again.

The amount of scenarios in my brain are horrendous but maybe because there are parts of me just trying to cope with shit and fill it with characters that make me feel better.

When I’m feeling angry, rebellious or wanna lash out and cause chaos. The legion is right there

A lot of the prime assets talk about Coyle smelling really bad and while listening to some of his old unused dialogue, i made a observation and theory

Ok lets be real, He really cant cuz his whole body is covered in wires and a battery strapped to his back.

But my theory is that he’s probably scared to even take baths cuz in one of his unused lines, he talks about how is mom forced him into a the bathtub and possibly try killing him through drowning and electricity. There for he is terrified to even be near water. Let alone showers and bathtubs

Honestly i would listen to his dialogue whenever i feel down or need some motivation. Or recite them despite him being a literal fucking psycho

I keep jumping obsession’s to fast but i still love and think about them.

Right now i’v been obsessed with outlast trials specifically my favorite cop Leland Coyle.

I got a starbucks, walked around the mall hoping to buy myself something but left empty handed. I went to a walmart to buy some party decorations. Mostly roses, vases and pearls as my party to celebrate would be on a Sunday. Which was 2 days after my birthday. I then sat in traffic for 1 hour and 30 min because i forgot it was a Friday and left peak rush hour.

I then had dinner with my family and my boyfriend and I absolutely wanted to leave. I hated it. Yet i just kept my mouth shut the entire time. My parents seem more cheerful than i am and i guess they are trying to make me smile. Yet i feel so miserable when they are around. Parents trying to annoy their kids you know. I wont get into details on what they did to me when i was you get but to put it short, i only see them and the screaming people they once were than the happy go lucky couple they are now.

I also got into an argument with my boyfriend, how i wasn’t responding to him. Saying ‘I’m talking to myself’ i explained that i was getting ready and couldn’t look at my phone. Yet my mood was already sour to begin with and as he sat there being angry i just dissociated the whole drive and dinner.

After, we all got home and gathered around the dining room table to blow out my candles on a small cake the shape of a hot coco cup. It was cute and my mom was raving about it and asking if i thought the same way. I just nodded.

They sung happy birthday and i of course put on a fake smile to look like Im enjoying it.

I swear the entire time they were singing happy birthday felt like an eternity. I just wanted to go into my room and cry but not yet.

I stared and the flames and it was nice to look at. Yet all i feel was just sadness, being reminded that i am getting older and still stuck in the same place. I didn’t achieve all the dreams that i set this year and started having a crisis. What was my purpose, will i ever have control over myself again. Will i ever feel happy again. Smile? Feel satisfied?. am i really just this depressed hollow doll destined to just rot and die in this family. On this corner of the world. I rather just…… never mind.

After cuddling with my boyfriend i had to drive him home because he has a bad ankle thats been hurting for a year now and he wore dress shoes that would make his feet hurt if he were to walk home.

I was grouchy of course because i fell asleep but i drove him home.

I got home, turned off the lights, laid down and just cried. I cried cuddling my teddy bear that i had since birth. I grew to hate my birthday. it just doesnt feel the same anymore. It always feels stressful, hallow, and depressing now.

I even contemplated on canceling on my party on Sunday. As it just starts to stress me out with decorations and entertainment, along with many of my new friends also stressing out because i live so far away from them and the fact that i had to go and get them just bothers me now since most of them don’t have their licenses as they live in a city that is walkable. But will see by tomorrow.

Well Happy Birthday to me i guess. I just hope i find that excitement again.

Ok ima say it😖

I made a headcannon post about danny being a theater kid and he wouldve nailed playing JD. Idk something about it screams a young Danny just without exploding the entire school.