it takes her a second to wake up . she even pulls her blanket over her head ; maybe if she can't see emma , emma can't see her. no dice .

there's a flash of brown hair ; her hands are seen before her head is, white-knuckling her pink fuzzy blanket . she peeks above the edge , big eyes landing on emma ' s . there is no reason she should be waking up at - what time is it right now ? a glance to her alarm clock tells her four am . oh my GOD ?

she takes a moment to gather herself, hears her phone thump to the floor. who knew she'd dropped it? head on straight : she discards her jacket, throws it onto the floor to be found at any time that is not within the next twelve hours. ❛❛ jesus fuck. christ on a goddamn cross.  ❜❜ her phone is on the floor, everything is lit from below. her hands fit over her hips, swaying on her feet, taking in the scene before her. hair juts out against a light blanket, a furious flash of dark eyes. emma folds at the waist, out of breath before her laughter breaks through into pure sound, bending at the knees into a creaky squat. ❛❛ d'you see that? it was crazy- they finally got me into a straitjacket. only took eighteen years.   ❜❜

Everything Everywhere All at Once (2022) dir. Daniel Kwan and Daniel Scheinert

❛  if we changed back then, we could change again.  ❜ ❛  what can i say? i'm a sucker for happy endings.  ❜ ❛  i'm sorry, are you talking to me?  ❜ ❛  i would give anything to be like that.  ❜ ❛  are we gonna have a problem?  ❜ ❛  you've come so far, why now are you pulling on my dick?  ❜ ❛  time for you to prove you're not a loser anymore.  ❜ ❛  you can join the team or you can bitch and moan.  ❜ ❛  mr. no-name kid, say who might you be?  ❜ ❛  it's fine if you don't agree, but i would fight for you if you would fight for me.  ❜ ❛  happiness comes when everything numbs.  ❜ ❛  does your mommy know you eat all this crap?  ❜ ❛  i learned to cook pasta, i learned to pay rent; i learned the world doesn't owe you a cent.  ❜ ❛  you heard it man, it's time to rage!  ❜ ❛  so wait, it's lime, then salt, then shot?  ❜ ❛  you're doing it wrong!  ❜ ❛  really? 'cause i feel great.  ❜ ❛  dreams are coming true when people laugh but not at you!  ❜ ❛  i didn't need your help.  ❜ ❛  i can't believe you actually came.  ❜ ❛  why d'you gotta be so weird all the time? people wouldn't hate you so much if you acted normal.  ❜ ❛  thirty hours to live - how shall i spend them?  ❜ ❛  sorry, but i really had to wake you.  ❜ ❛  let's go you know the drill; i'm hot and pissed and on the pill.  ❜ ❛  you say you're numb inside but i can't agree.  ❜ ❛  how'd you find my address?  ❜ ❛  no sleep tonight for you, better chug that mountain dew.  ❜ ❛  no one sees the me inside of me.  ❜ ❛  keep going. this has to be good enough to fool the cops.  ❜ ❛  i never knew about her pain.  ❜ ❛  don't talk mean like that.  ❜ ❛  what did they do to you that you hate them so?  ❜ ❛  you are the only thing that's right about this broken world.  ❜ ❛  they'll die because we say they must.  ❜ ❛  what the fuck have you done?!  ❜ ❛  let's be normal. see bad movies, sneak a beer, and watch tv.  ❜ ❛  don't you want a life with me?  ❜ ❛  if you could let me in, i could be good with you.  ❜ ❛  so what's it gonna be? i wanna be with you.  ❜ ❛  but your love's too good to lose.  ❜ ❛  you're the one i choose.  ❜ ❛  there's nowhere to hide if i say the wrong thing.  ❜ ❛  but i believe any dream worth having is a dream that should not have to end.  ❜ ❛  no, you wouldn't understand!  ❜ ❛  try me! i've experienced everything you're going through right now.  ❜ ❛  you don't know what my world looks like!  ❜ ❛  they made you blind, messed up your mind but i can set you free.  ❜ ❛  i was meant to be yours!  ❜ ❛  don't give up on me now.  ❜ ❛  i can't make this alone! finish what we've begun.  ❜ ❛  i am all that you need.  ❜ ❛  please don't leave me alone. you were all i could trust, i can't do this alone.  ❜ ❛  no one here deserves to die except for me and the monster i created.  ❜ ❛  i wish we met before they convinced you life is war.  ❜ ❛  i wish you'd come with me ...  ❜ ❛  i am damaged, far too damaged, but you're not beyond repair.  ❜ ❛  hope you'll miss me, wish you'd kiss me.  ❜ ❛  i'd be honored if you'd let me be your friend.  ❜

❛ I THOUGHT I WAS DOING THE RIGHT THING ... ❜ NADYA'S PRIVATE, PERSONAL INTERPRETATION OF ( 𝘾𝘼𝙏𝙀 𝘿𝙐𝙉𝙇𝘼𝙋 ) FROM AMAZON PRIME'S 𝙶𝙴𝙽 𝚅. WITH MINOR CANON DIVERGENCE. 𝘌𝘟𝘛𝘙𝘌𝘔𝘌𝘓𝘠 𝘚𝘌𝘓𝘌𝘊𝘛𝘐𝘝𝘌 & RARELY FOLLOWS FIRST. VIEWER DISCRETION ADVISED.

i've got my money on things going badly.

i'm still hoping that the fire won't burn me.

all i know is this could either break my heart or bring it back to life.

i'm trying hard not to look like i'm trying.

i've grown accustomed to sleeping alone.

and maybe i call you mine.

'cause she's the kind of book that you can't put down.

and to tell you the truth, sometimes i wish i was her.

she won't lose herself in love the way that i did.

little does he know, his whole world's about to change.

i've been watching you for ages.

i spend my time trying not to feel it.

what would you do if i went to touch you now?

i could see you up against the wall with me.

i can see you.

and we kept everything professional, but something's changed.

it's best that we move fast and keep quiet.

you won't believe half the things i see inside my head.

you know i won't ever tell.

i could see you being my addiction.

you can see me as a secret mission.

i will start behaving myself.

i used to be great.

they used to cheer when they saw my face.

now i fear, i have fallen from grace.

i watch all my bridges burn to the ground.

you don't want to know me. i will just let you down.

you don't want to know me now.

i held that grudge, til it tore me apart.

power went to my head and i couldn't stop.

ones i loved tried to help, so i ran them off.

and here i sit alone, behind walls of regret.

i don't know how it could've ended this way.

people look at me like i'm a monster.

now they're screaming that they hate me.

never wanted you to hate me.

chances are tonight you've already got plans.

chances are i will talk myself to sleep again.

you give me just enough attention to keep my hopes too high.

you are not the exception.

you will never learn your lesson.

stop checking your mailbox for confessions of love that ain't never gonna come.

you know how to keep me waiting.

i know how to act like i'm fine.

don't know what to call this situation, but i know i can't call you mine.

i will do my best to seem bulletproof.

when my head is on your shoulder, it starts thinking you'll come around.

maybe someday when we're older, this is something we'll laugh about.

how could i not see the signs?

you haven't written me or called.

i'll get your longing glances, but they'll get your ring.

you should've been walking out.

he just wasn't the one.

in those photos, i saw us instead.

in another life, you still would've turned my head.

you still would've been mine.

we would've been timeless.

'cause i believe that we were supposed to find this.

you're always gonna be mine.