Charlie's foolishness

I'm falling apart yet I am coming together. Isn't beautiful, creation and destruction all at once, the fire burns its fuel but provides warmth to that around it. Its almost here, its already gone. Time is fleeting, its rushing by like the rapids of a river, so why are you still standing in place? You need to move forward, backwards is the direction of the disillusioned. Its almost time. Its almost space. Its almost real. Its almost fake. You're almost gone, but you shouldn't be. Remain, for there is light ahead.

Im so tired. Its been such a long time since I've felt like I've actually had someone beside me in this world. Everyone online has left me, and all those in my life are far away, or distant in emotion. Its draining, going through life constantly wanting just to love, and be loved, yet always being one step behind. Im so alone yet im surrounded on all sides. I will freeze in the heat of summer, I will starve surrounded by trees of poisonous berries, I will dehydrate in the ocean.