Deep inside

That's the perfect spot.

Until you show up in my thoughts.

Thoughts about you are so weak after a long, long time

But while I feel at peace and well (specially after an amazing night)

Thinking that one of my thoughts still led back to you feels bittersweet

And I'm caught between feeling that I'm so much better without you and also extremely livid that you've still managed to linger into my thoughts

You caused so much pain and you still don't care. And you never will

I was just someone you knew, nothing important

And to me, you still rocked my world

My hopes are that you still both feel the same pain and that you never get to feel the same pain, as it lingers what it feels like forever

And sometimes I also think about patronising people that I've met before and how I really don't want to become one of them. The arrogant that shows how superior they are and every conversation is a chance to show off how much stuff they know. To make other people feel small

Today I was thinking about AI as well. And some group chat interactions with friends that should provide interesting interactions between people and nice conversations. But instead are answered with an clearly AI-made answer.

Things do get better

This is coming from someone who didn't believe in happy moments or who thought I didn't deserve better. Or that I would die alone.

Just make that hard decision. Let that toxic person go. Delete their number. Forget about them. Someone amazing is coming. Someone who cares about you with all your quirks and thoughts. Trust the process and learn to love yourself. Trust in the process and focus on your personal dreams.