Live True

without tenderness you are nothing!!

this urn will turn you into a tree after you die

Still want this.

10 years. A wonderful journey. :)

I am so thankful that I have you in my life. I’m just happy that I get to text you all day and see you every two weeks, even if you’re 100 miles away and we’re both at school. It doesn’t phase me, I’m just glad that you’re in my life.

Still glad. Only had to do this for what, 3 more years after this? And then we've been living together for... 6 years? The big picture is a wonderful thing. <3

Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria symptom of ADHD. She was right. She's always right.

There is meaning in the relationships we build with others, the love built, the care provided, experiences shared. Do the small wins make up for the horrors of the world? I don't think so. We won't allow those horrors in our spaces though. You didn't go into that profession. You tried, but you weren't the right fit for it. You found another way to help people, albeit fix their tech. You will find the strength to speak publicly. So will others. There will always be dissent in the face of oppression, even if our systems were built to and continue to oppress specific populations. You will continue to struggle with the present. You have ADHD. And with that ADHD comes particular symptoms of social anxiety, and even general anxiety. That planning was all you could do to try to protect yourself. There's too much you can't account for. No, Social Work didn't work out for you in the end. The education did, in that it helped you figure things out for yourself and also understand working with others better in any capacity. It was worth it. It will take time and effort, but you will not always be waiting for the next thing.

I don’t understand how people can be so happy when there’s so many awful things happening in the world.

You understood then. You has- tagged it. Ignorance. We all have to either live in ignorance, find some sort of peace in the lives we build for ourselves, or some combination of the two.

Lots of questions. There aren't answers. This world was not built for answers to questions like those. In the end, you are able to help others, just not in the way you expected you would be.

This may not be popular opinion but at this point I’ve decided that America deserves whatever may come these next 4 years for allowing this to happen. Lets just hope the impacts will not span past those 4 years.

America, humanity. Your general opinion of the human race has not improved, nor our prognosis on this planet.

As I sit here heading home from a family vacation I keep asking myself so many questions. What kind of world are we living in where after a family vacation we need a break from family? This is supposed to be rest, relaxation, and enjoyment for the whole family. Yet by the end of it we’re all sick of each other. But this is an issue spanning far beyond just family vacations. My experience with this family (this entire family, myself not being excluded in any way) is that everyone is so fucking negative. Honestly, why does every interaction with each other need to have a tone of impatience, condescension, and disgust? I wrote something similar about this a few years ago. Maybe I’ll go back and reblog it. But each of those things shows me that the general feeling is anger with each other. And as far as I’m concerned, anger shows that we take the things we are angry at for granted. If you don’t appreciate what’s around you, you should either remember to take the time to appreciate it, or find something else that you will appreciate. Either way, if you aren’t enjoying your life – make a change so that you will. Everyone deserves happiness; don’t waste anyone else’s, or even your own, time trying to force something that at the end does not make you happy. Enjoy everything that you’ve worked for, and if you don’t enjoy it yet, keep working toward something you will enjoy. I guess my point is that everyone should be thinking critically about their own behavior – if you notice that you’re constantly annoyed, angry, frustrated, etc., I think you should really take the time to think about why that is and how it can be changed. Make the effort to make your life, and the lives around you, the best lives they can be. At the end of the day all we have is each other, and ourselves.

Letting go of anger is hard, but worth it. Because of the very reasons you point out.

If you are ever having a serious conversation with me - you need to listen to exactly what I’m saying and not make assumptions about me or what I believe. I say things the way I say them for very specific reasons. 

The reoccurring theme of the neurodivergent tone.

the only thing in this world worthy of my anger is the person that taught me to feel it.

he's not even worthy of that. no one is worthy of that.

I feel like at the end of next month I’ll have wasted 18 years of my life by being too careful. I want to be able to talk to random people, and to have some sort of confidence in my actions with new people. How do I change though other than just doing it?

Lexapro.

I only have a few regrets from my time in highschool, but theyre pretty big. At least to me.

10 years later, you don't even remember what they are.