What’s your first big screen film?
When you ask people about the first film they watched on the big screen some of them would say their favorite Disney or Marvel movies like Spiderman or Stitch. Yet for me, it's not.
I clearly remember how excited i was to enter the theater not knowing Dekada '70 was playing. I was sitting on the lap of my guardian, confused by the peoples reaction to every scene not until the part where Piolo Pascual was tortured on the metal bed which haunts me until this day. I cried inside the theater as blood filled the screen. Obviously i am not familiar of it's nature and it's political agenda. I didn't have a concept of fear nor agony since i was only 4. It made me feel all of the unfamiliar emotions. When my guardians couldn't take my crying and i bet i was disturbing the movie goers they decided to take me outside.
Looking back, i am questioning my family's sanity for them to expose me with this kind of theme. Although there is still a part of me that reasons out maybe they are not familiar of the film perhaps thay thought it was a mellow film since Piolo Pascual and Vilma Santos was the main protagonist.
As I grew older, this experience truly altered my brain chemistry. I developed trust issues in which before i watch an unfamiliar movie I make sure to read the plot and theme. I am uncomfortable with the concept of blind date--film edition.
My experience somehow was traumatizing, traumatizing in a sense that it is difficult to watch any film that includes torture and assault...
