My Experience On The Loud House Wiki
Trigger Warning: Grooming, pedophilia, mentions of NSFW
IMPORTANT DISCLAIMER: Do not harass anyone mentioned in this document or on The Loud House Wiki. It’s unproductive, and will not solve anything.
I’ve been holding off on saying this, not out of fear, but because I’ve been trying to suppress this in the hope of moving on and forgetting about it. Needless to say, it has not proved successful, and has only led to me feeling more stressed and upset. So I’m done holding back, and I’m publishing this document to let people know what I truly think of this Wiki and the people who run it.
I first joined the Discord in 2021 when I was 13 years old, and one instance in October, I joined a vc call with Leni (a wiki staff member), Chiv, and RyDawg (two server staff). There were others involved, but I do not remember their usernames. Leni decided to invite me to a group chat where he sent Rule 34 of Loud House characters (censored but still incredibly inappropriate), under the guise of making fun of how gross it was.
It shouldn’t have to be said, but you shouldn’t be showing a minor NSFW, regardless of it being censored or not.
This would happen again in December, where he would screen share and show me and some other people more censored NSFW art. By then, he and the other staff most definitely knew I was a minor, and therefore can’t use the excuse that they didn’t know I was underage.
Early in January, I got banned for asking Leni to do it again, unaware of what he was doing was incredibly messed up. My reputation on that server hadn’t been the best at that point, with me constantly ranting about Loud House, along with sending some fanart that was, in retrospect, pretty creepy (IIRC it was a parody of a Family Guy cutaway, but it was still rather uncomfortable), though I was only 13, and I didn’t understand why it was inappropriate (or it’s possible I had been desensitized by Leni’s previous actions). But that was the final nail in the coffin.
My final warning before I was banned:
The message that got me banned:
And if anyone is wondering, Leni wasn’t immediately banned for what he did.
Before I appealed my ban the first time, I spent time in a side TLH Hangout server, run by Leni, Luan, and Chiv. I initially whined about being banned and tried convincing them I would behave, but it didn’t work.
Eventually, I filled out a ban appeal in June, and I successfully rejoined the server. However, I was banned the next day for posting a meme making fun of “Loudcest”.
Now, back to Leni. Of course, Leni has shown me censored Rule 34 of Loud House characters, but it’s certainly not the only creepy thing he’s done.
For one, he’s asked Flow about her bras when she was 14 (and she has confirmed that he knew she was 14 at the time).
Interestingly, he was banned from the Loud House Wiki’s Discord server, as he revealed to me in DMs. He claims that it was due to a “false accusation”, but given everything I know about him, I have no reason to believe otherwise.
Back to that TLH Hangout server I mentioned, he still runs that server as an admin alongside Chiv and Luan, as well as some other chat mods from the Wiki server, like RyDawg and Path.
I don’t have much to say about that server, but I will note is that Luan added inappropriate emojis of Leni (a character who is canonically 16-17), and Lori (yes, she turned 18 in Season 5, but considering that Luan is in his mid-to-late 20s, this still feels messed up).
I would eventually appeal that ban in November, and I would successfully reintegrate into the server. I felt more respected by the people on that server, and didn’t feel too frowned upon.
But by no means was it perfect. Early on, I noticed some rather toxic behavior from both staff and other members.
The most toxic of the staff team was, without a doubt, Jaylop. He was an insecure manchild who would dismiss any criticism of The Loud House he didn’t like, rather than ignoring it, and just seemed angry a lot of the time. After the YouTuber Cartoonshi attempted suicide in late 2023, when he heard the news, he went into a tirade about how much he dislikes Cartoonshi and how he’s “milking the franchise” (he’s also repeated baseless accusations of Cartoonshi being a bully, which I haven’t seen any evidence for). A lot of people on that server also disliked Cartoonshi, with another member claiming that he only attempted suicide for attention.
Now let’s talk about Luan. He’s not quite as volatile as Jay, but he’s still not good. Like Jay, he will dismiss any criticism of Loud House he doesn’t like, regardless of validity. For example, if someone says they dislike the fantasy elements, he’ll respond with “they can do whatever they want”, which merely serves as a cheap excuse to deflect criticism.
The moderators themselves were also rather unpleasant to interact with at times. In the words of my friend Enayy:
“The mods themselves as people just act weird, and weirdly defensive at that. Almost nonsensically.”
This is from August of 2024, but it gives a good indicator of how the moderators (in this case, EvilChameleon being needlessly combative) behave:
From what I remember, some of the staff team gave off the vibe that they were only in their positions because they were friends with other staff.
Other members of the server also proved to be rather immature. For example, a user named “Takora” is shown here being unnecessarily hostile for attention (though, in retrospect, I believe I should’ve ignored him). He was never punished for this behavior, so I’m inclined to believe that favoritism is a prevalent issue in the server:
Over time, as I began realizing how awful the server really was, my behavior took a turn for the worse in the later days. I began taking out my dislike of them by making fun of their taste in anime. It wasn’t because I disliked anime, but rather because I didn’t like them, and was looking for something cheap to strike them with.
Eventually, I started becoming more and more toxic, to the point where I would sometimes start tension myself and ruin the vibe. You might be asking why I didn’t just leave. I wish I did leave the server before things got out of hand, but the reason I stayed was that I wanted to see what Level 30 was like before I left, to determine if it was worth it. Other than that, I had very little motivation for staying on the server.
Needless to say, I would never see Level 30. In April of 2024, Jaylop would mute me and chew me out for my toxic behavior, and initially, he was in the right. But he completely lost his point after I told him I wanted to take an indefinite hiatus from the server. That’s when he decided to coerce me into staying by threatening to block me from Wiki Discussions (which I told him I felt more comfortable in). Keep in mind, coercion is strictly prohibited according to server rules.
He insisted that remaining on the server was necessary if I wanted to improve myself (though that would likely have made me even more volatile). When I refused, he dismissed my concerns and called me pathetic for not wanting to stay. This is when I had had enough and left the server for good. He eventually blocked me with the reason “reality check needed.”
Eventually, Enayy noticed I had been blocked, and I filled him in on what happened. He told me that it was “so disappointing” and “that is just pathetic”. He would reach out to Flow, a moderator from Wiki Discussions (and another one of my wiki friends), and I filled her in on the info. She would then tell Xaiver (another wiki friend), who then revealed what had happened to the wiki.
When Xaiver confronted Jay, he took zero responsibility for his actions. He would deflect the blame onto me, citing my toxic behavior (which I acknowledged I was wrong for), and bringing up past incidents involving me (i.e., me sending questionable fan art when I was 13, or in his words, “sending NSFW in cold blood”). Luan came to his defense, also citing old information (that time I asked Leni to show censored R34 in a VC).
Screenshots, courtesy of Flow and Xaiver:
Eventually, we came to a compromise, and in May, he agreed to unblock me from Wiki Discussions under the condition that I promise not to cause any problems on Wiki Discussions. I agreed, and the block was lifted.
At first, I was satisfied with the block being lifted. But over time, I lost that satisfaction when I realized I never got full closure. Jay and the other staff never acknowledged that they were in the wrong, and likely never acknowledged it privately either. This left a bitter taste in my mouth and made me feel cheated.
(cont'd in part 2, as Tumblr only allows 30 images per post)