Britt

I’ve been back on the weight loss train for the last few weeks, and I’ve realized how much I really miss having a community. Instagram is okay, but it’s full of unrealistic pictures and expectations. I want to read personal stories and experiences that I can relate to and make some virtual friendships where we can be supportive!

I washed my face tonight for the first time and started my skin care routine back up. Here's to trying be consistent. 😂

Anyone else struggling during this pandemic?

Night routine:

- The Ordinary Squalene Cleanser

- Cerave Foaming Face Wash

- The Ordinary Niacinamide 10% + Zinc

- Tactupump/Epiduo prescription cream (Adapalene and Benzoyl Peroxide)

#skincare #skin #acne #face #acnetreatment #epiduo #tactuo #tactupump #theordinary #washyourface #selfcare #skincareaddict #niacinamide #clearskin

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Da fuck.

I've been taking singing lessons for the last couple months, and it has really helped me come out of my shell.

I've decided I want to try some dance lessons (to maybe eventually be in a musical lolz)...

There's a school near my house offering adult Broadway dance classes this summer!!! 😍😍😍 Basically each week they teach you a new Broadway dance routine.

.... OMG I'm obsessed with this cast recording!!! 😍😍😍

Sore throat and head cold, turned into cough that is keeping me awake all night.

Today is going to suck, but the good news.... It's FRIDAY!

Work. I'm still working for the federal government in a job that I don't particularly enjoy. I've been networking like crazy though and might have some opportunities coming my way.

Wedding. I believe we are 29 days away from our wedding. Things are actually calm right now... Calm before the storm?

Singing lessons. I've started taking private singing lessons (something I've always wanted to do) and I am LOVING it. So nice to have a good hobby again, and to invest in making myself feel good.

Masters degree. I finished one course, I'm now taking a break for the summer and will resume in September (part-time).

I'm back, but I've kind of revamped my blog. I don't want to be a fitblr or fitness blog anymore. I just want a space to post about things I love, bad days, hopes and dreams, etc.

My blog will still be completely personal (very little reblogged content, all original posts). Just don't expect much fitness stuff. Just plain old me posting about:

Cats

Broadway musicals

Figuring out my career

Video games

Geeky stuff

Wedding (although less than a month to go, so not for much longer)

Nature

Life events

Shower thoughts

Did I mention cats?

Made myself a (very) small hot chocolate yesterday instead of my usual GIANT ones. It was still delicious, I still got the warm fuzzies I needed, and I didn’t over indulge.

I didn’t eat the whole house dry yesterday! I got home upset and frustrated and tired (from work and then immediately shovelling the driveway full of ice and snow). I wanted to DEVOUR anything in sight. I could see myself in my head, throwing stuff down my throat just because I was emotionally upset. Instead, I got myself a small bowl of peppers/tomatos and dip.

Yeah turns out they are 35 calories each. XD

Life has been pretty good.

I’m working full time for the Government, just started my Master’s part time, and the wedding is in 5 months.

One thing that has been a constant struggle for me though, is my body. I bounce between feeling great about myself and the size I am, to suddenly hating myself and all the weight I’ve gained. I have been (overall) eating healthier lately, but not seeing any changes in the body. Granted, I haven’t really been trying that hard.

I was working with a personal trainer before Christmas. It was cool at first. He built workouts for me, scheduled them, and gave me a meal plan. Within the first week, I was DONE. He expected me to workout 6 days a week at the gym. If I felt like running on the treadmill instead of the elliptical, I got yelled at for going off the plan. The food was terrible (plain rice cakes, almonds, no fruit, only green veggies, etc). It just wasn’t what I wanted for myself.

Yes, I want to lose weight. But I don’t want to do something drastic where I suddenly try to change my entire lifestyle. I want to continue building small, sustainable habits that will help me be healthy and actually stick to something.