these violent delights have violent ends

“you’re so cold and mysterious” thanks i am a lonely extrovert that has suppressed all social interaction after being shut down for speaking numerous times

fuck me if you must then treat me like an old friend i can't exist within my own head so I insist on haunting your bed

3 4 5s where we stayed told me im a narcissist doin it again took a bunch of acid and I told him not again now ive gotta tell him im in love with his friends

finally getting around to throwing out/giving away things that people who are no longer in your life gave you >>>

people are so fucking confusing and not straightforward like if you don't want to talk to me just say that !!!!!!! I'll go talk to someone who does

“you’re so hot” yeah bro it’s cuz I'm fucking insane

do you hate me?

i am literally at such a low point right now not even for any particular reason but just for so so so many different things happening in my life rn esp at home and i don’t know what to do i don’t have anyone to reach out to anymore i don’t have anymore that wants to listen to i don’t have a way to make things better and i feel stuck and i don’t know what to do anymore nothing feels real but no one has my back

I give up im done trying. if things get better they get better but if they don't I don't care im gonna turn into a mushroom and rot in the soil

just gonna trust myself, my plushies, and occasionally someone who brings me vodka for a while. just me and all of them against the world

It's been a really really messed up week seven days of torture seven days of bitter and my girlfriend went and cheated on me she's a california dime but it's time for me to quit her la la la whatever la la la it doesn't matter la la la oh well la la la

i am going to blockf everyone

cant look at any reflective surface without feeling like i have the words “worthless” written across my forehead

if i try to stomach wine without being capable of consuming anything other than a smoothie today will i die

i cant sleep or keep anything down bruv am i gonan die