2 hours bago matapos ang 2018. Gusto ko pang balikan yung mga nangyare sakin sa taon na to hahaha, gusto kong magpasalamat ulit kay Lord sa mga blessings na binigay nya samin ngayon.

Naging sobrang saya ng taon na to para sakin. Natapos ako ng internship ko nung april. Naka graduate. Nag review for board exam. Nag board exam and fortunately nakapasa. Naging masaya ang family, wala ng away na katulad ng dati na nagiging dahilan minsan ng suicidal thoughts ko hahaha.

Sobrang dami kong natanggap na pagmamahal galing sa buong pamilya ko. Sobrang laking pasasalamat ko kay Lord kasi naging sobrang ganda ng taon na to para sa aming lahat.

Hihingi din ako ng patawad sa ugali ko na alam ko eh madalas sablay talaga hahaha, hihingi ako ng tawad sa lahat lahat ng nagawa ko.

Sana sa darating na 2019, maging kasing saya at kasing ganda ito ng 2018. Kung hindi man mas masaya o mas maganda ang takbo, sana maging katulad ito ng 2018 ko.

Hi!!!

Long over due post na to hahaha kasi nung una kong naisipan na i-post to, di ko alam ilalagay ko. Sobrang overwhelmed pa ako na hindi ako makapag-construct nang maayos na sentence hahaha

So anyway, last nov. 11, 2018 nag punta iKON dito hihi nanood kami ni Jannina, super mura ng ticket!!! 1,500 for UB B ticket?? Although nung una di pa ako desidido talaga manood kasi ayaw nila Coryne na lagi kong kasama anywhere. Pero gusto ko talaga manood na kaka-announce lang na magto-tour sila dito nag-sabi kaagad ako kanila mama na manonood ako kahit mag-isa ako and i’m thankful kasi bet din ni nene ang iKON!! Nakakaloka dahil nag-camping pa sya :-(( ubusan talaga ang ticket kakaloka sold out lahat within an hour!

So yeah, november 11, 2018 is really a memorable night for me na talagang hindi ako maka-get over for a month or two na napanood ko sila live!! Sobrang saya nila panoorin sa stage kasi sobrang hyper nila, sobrang lakas ng stage presence kakaloka! Ang sarap sarap panoorin 💖 NO BACK UP DANCERS, NO BAND, JUST iKON x iKONICS AND PH-KONICS SNAPPED!!! Parang hindi concert eh, parang party talaga that it even reached korean news even here sa ph! “Ain’t no party like an iKONIC party” talaga!! Some iKONICS from other countries even said na dito na lang sila manonood ng concert next time and that we are the kind of crowd that iKON needs. As in parang party talaga and another thing that made me really happy and a memory that i won’t forget and will always treasure is BOBBY HAVING FUN!!! As in super party party sya 😭 during their don’t let me know encore, pinapanood ko lang sya sumayaw at tumalon talon sa main stage while yung other members ay nasa extended stage tapos nung outro na nya, damn gurl when i tell you hinihingal sya legit na di sya makakanta ng ayos hahahaha sobrang memorable talaga nung gabing yon, goosebumps all over my body buti na lang nanood ako talaga (thankyou kuya for my ticket hahaha)

Many things happened that night na sobrang unforgettable!! Fan projects like waving the yellow cloth during b-day na sobrang ikinatuwa ni chanwoo at hanbin that he decided to do it again as the last song nung encore na. PROJECT IRIDISCENCE!! Who can forget that beautiful project na every time i see it i remember how beautiful it is. The look on their faces, makikita mo talaga na na-appreciate nila. You can clearly saw their amazement and awe huhu sa sobrang na-appreciate nila 5/7 posted a pic right after the concert!!!! As in huhu

Yunhyeong speaking tagalog and shouting ‘manila sigaw!!’ where we screamed our lungs out na ikinagulat ng other members kasi di nila alam ibig sabihin ng sigaw 😂 then bobby said one more time and sa mga fancam we saw the that other members were shookt wahaha di ko makakalimutan expressions nila lalo ni yunhyeong and hanbin, nani expressing his love for the philippines!! And during just for you grabe yung emotions nila while singing ramdam na ramdam talaga :(( (that was the time when project iridiscence happened), basta sobrang dami!! First group hug!! First group shout na kumpleto sila!! Junbob happend when they sang Best Friend!!! My original ship hahaha kaso lumubog. Jinhwan wearing a unicorn onesie na super cute sa kanya huhu and what a coincidence kasi yung kulay nya is rainbow din, like wow project iridiscence anyone?? Hahahaha. Bobby shouting saranghae 😭 BOBBY SINGING TENDAE!! SOBRANG GALING NI BOBBY PUCHA I CAN FEEL HIS EMOTIONS SOBRAAAA, VIDEOS DONT GIVE JUSTICE SA PAG KANTA NYA LIVE THAT I FELT LIKE CRYING WHILE LISTENING TO HIM AND ALL I CAN DO IS SMILE AND SHAKE MY HEAD WHILE WATCHING HIM!!! I need your album bub, both version! 😭

And nung closing na, before sila mag bow, bobby and nani said ‘manila! you guys are the best!’ (altho i read on twt na sinabi din nila yun sa iba, iba yung emotions nila eh mafe-feel mo yung sincerity and makikita mo sa mata nila na sincere talaga sila) and grabe ang tagal nila nag-bow and they kept saying thankyou!!!, mahal ko kayo!!!, huhu and hanbin, before exiting the stage said ‘thankyou, manila! i love you guys!’ tangina i felt that din!!! :((((

Isang linggo ata ako nag paulit ulit manood ng fan cams and sobrang nakakaiyak talaga when you see them smiling while we are singing along to their songs HUHU MY HEART???? And super special talaga ng just for you + project iridiscence aka rainbow project hahaha kasi hanbin smiled, and stared at the crowd while shaking his head hay ❤️

And now, sobrang hooked ko sa kanila. Sobrang ibang iba naging impact ng iKON saakin compared sa bigbang mainly because nahabol ko pa kung saan at paano sila nag-simula? Nabasa at napanood ko yung mga hirap na pinag-daanan nila unlike BB na sobrang dami ng history na di ko kaya mag-keep up :( but i still love them tho, manonood pa din ako con nila, number 1 nga lang ang iKON sa puso ko hehe ❤️

ODIBA SOBRANG HABA HAHAHA KASI NGA SOBRANG SAYA AT SOBRANG MEMORABLE NUNG GABING YON NA ANDAMI DAMI KONG GUSTONG SABIHIN, IT WAS THE BEST CONCERT OF MY LIFE. AND IT WILL BE ONE OF THE BEST CONCERTS OF MY LIFE KASI MASUSUNDAN PA YON AND ANDYAN PA ANG LEGEND NA BIGBANG WAHAHA

So ayun, since UB B lang ako nung first date with them, promise ko sa sarili ko VIP Standing na ako sa next date natin, sobrang love ko kayo!!!! MISS YOU GUYS!

I’M PROUD TO SAY THAT I’M AN iKONIC AND I’M SO HAPPY THAT I MET THEM AND THAT I’M STANNING AND LOVING THE RIGHT GROUP.

I’LL BE WITH YOU GUYS TIL THE END. WALA MAN AKO NUNG UMPISA, I PROMISE THAT I’LL STAY BY YOUR SIDE TIL THE END, SUPPORTING AND LOVING YOU.

THE END

ngayon ko lang na-realize kung bakit mas gusto ko na sa bahay kesa umalis... because it’s much much better compared to the past.

hindi na nag aaway sila mama kagaya ng dati, i’m happy inside our house. i’m comfortable in it. Ngayon alam ko na ang isasagot pag tinanong nila ako ng “bakit lagi kang nasa bahay?” or pag sinabihan nila akong “lagi ka na lang nasa bahay” hehe

Now, i can finally say that i’m really happy ❤️ and it’s all because of God. ito lagi yung prayer ko sa kanya, na sana maging masaya na pamilya namin at wag na magka-problema. yes, nagkakaproblema, nag-aaway pero di na katulad ng dati na sobrang lala talaga.

Deserve ko naman siguro ‘to diba? Deserve ko maging ganito kasaya kasi ang shitty talaga ng childhood ko. Most of it was mama and papa fighting and then papa hitting mama hahaha

Gusto ko lang i-share yung happiness ko na dahil sa pagiging closer ko kay God. Sa Kanilang lahat. ❤️

Year 2017:

1. September. Deliberation kung sino magiging interns. And yes we did it!!!!!

2. September 22. Watched Taeyang live in araneta HUHU sobrang thankful for the ticket na last minute ko nakuha talaga na nag-silbing treat sa amin kasi intern na kami!

3. December. Umuwi si regel from abu dhabi which means kumpleto kami nung pasko at bagong taon last year hehehe super happy kasi nag-bakasyon kami sa ilocos!! 😍

Year 2018:

1. March 16(???). Final deliberation!!!! Kung gagraduate ba kami or hindi HUHU and yes we did it again 😭✨ umiyak pako nung araw na to kasi kinausap kami na inadjust lang daw yung score namin para maka-graduate kami HUHU

2. April 17. Graduation day!! Board exam is next!

3. September 22 and 23. Board Exam Days

4. September 26!!!!! RMT NA KAME!!! FINALLY!!!!

5. October 14. Ticket for iKon concert hihihi excited!!

6. November 3. Oath taking!!! And license hihi

7. November 14. iKON concert!!!!

So ayun. Promise ever since talaga na humingi ako ng guidance at forgiveness sa Kanya. Binigay Nya talaga lahat sa akin. Kaya alam kong kung hindi dahil sa Kanya wala ako dito, hindi ako ganito kasaya. Kaya I am forever grateful sa Kanilang lahat na nag-bigay ng gabay sa amin. Maraming salamat kasi andyan kayo para sa amin lagi at hindi nagsa-sawang pakinggan kami. 💖

Someday, i will find the one for me.

It may be not today. Not tomorrow. But someday he will come.

The one whom i can tell all my thoughts to.

The one whom i can tell everything i want to get out of my chest.

The one whom i can pour my heart out to.

The one who will listen everytime i tell stories.

The one who i can share my joy, love and time with.

Someday he will come.

And i will be ready to give my all to him.

Someday i will meet my own person.