Unfiltered.

The thing about being underweight is nobody really cares. They might say you look too thin, but they’ll just go on about their day forgetting you completely. No one ever looks at anyone deeper, do they?

I feel so unstable today  -___-

Sometimes I want to tell people about my mood disorder diagnosis so they can understand me better, but then I’m scared they will see me as weak or broken or unstable... IDK prolly seem unstable at times anyway

How to make this man fall in love with me hmmmm 

People on the internet are so kind to me and I just appreciate them so much!!

Working on finding the root of my disordered eating and it’s exhausting! It’s just bringing up so many bad memories & leaving me confused... I don’t know the cause. I’m not sure if it was my ultra strict upbringing, moms negativity/ dieting, the PTSD from my car accidents, getting sexually assaulted by a “friend” or a combination of it all?  I have always felt like I have no control or say so in high school I picked up this habit of not eating when wanting control. I had a period in my life that was a lot of stress all at once and I lost all the fat in my body. I need  to heal, but I’m not sure I can do it on my own. I don’t know what to do at all really... I can’t seem to be consistent with eating so I don’t gain any weight :( I am tired of looking like a skeleton.

I will never date another white man again and it feels liberating. FINALLY I am not hearing my families internalized racism in my head and I am Free.