once burned, lesson learned.

it was a slow and painful death up until the last breath. and i burned the carcass 12 ft beneath the dead grass and danced upon this freshly made grave with joy because there was one thing i could save; ...myself.

i feel the emptiness as it eats away at my soul, mutilating me until im in pieces. there is no way to fill this cavernous hole that is rapidly growing, but i wonder, when did it start showing? when did it become apparent in my eyes? and when did people begin to see through my lies? i can’t remember when i stopped smiling, it was probably around the time your love began failing... when it no longer filled up my heart, i forget...when did it start? you promised me you’d keep me from falling apart, but instead you clawed at my seams, pulled on my strings, and watched as i began unraveling... the torture was unending as you were unyielding, but my misery was your heightening ecstasy... so enjoy the show i have put on for you, but know just one thing...just one... out of everyone there have been none but you that has held my heart so true; is this what it means to love someone completely? to love them until you are empty? i loved you...until there was nothing left inside me... tell me, are you happy?

wuthering heights

lamb, lamb, lamb that i am, i am a lamb in wolf’s clothing but if you look close enough you’ll see the seams are unraveling and soon, my true nature will be exposed, all i wanted was to keep myself from being disclosed, i don’t want to become the prey amongst the hungry who've been awaiting this day, i’ve seen the true desires of these lascivious men and learned that their hunger knows no end, i saw in their eyes the evilest of intentions for a girl like me who has her own pretensions, i've seen it many times before, how they use their illusive allure to convince their innocent little sacrifice to disregard her vices so they can devour their prey at her sweetest hour...