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I bought a razor today. It's dumb. I know its dumb, but,

My last razor sat in the shower unused when I stopped shaving until I took it and kept it in a drawer. That was two years ago.

I know it's dumb to think this much about a razor, but,

I threw my last razor away as a symbol. I cleaned the blades with hand sanitizer one last time, wrapped them in a tissue, and threw them away.

I know it's dumb, but, my hand itched to take them out until I took the bag to the dumpster.

I bought a razor today and I'm scared. I know it's dumb, but, the last time I had a razor I shaved the hairs on my arms with just one blade between my fingers. To get them out of the way.

I know it's dumb because I'm two years clean this october but the temptation is still there. The razor will stay in the bathroom this time.