Lemony Thoughts In A Limetastic World

I may be crazy.

How is it I've never been with a guy who is strict about wearing a condom?

I used his cc to buy my movie ticket tonight.

I used his cc to buy my movie ticket tonight.

One person is not meant to feel this much loss and heartache in their lives without it meaning something. Or meaning they're meant for something bigger. They just have to be meant for more. It's the laws of equivalent exchange - biblical, rudimentary, as old as time itself: the Lord giveth, the Lord taketh away.

Despite it all... I want him back. And I'm desperate enough to try everything in my power (and perhaps even a stronger power) to get my person back.

I have aneurysms in my head. Three, to be precise. I had a baby, baby, minor cardiac episode a few years ago. And I have an autoimmune disorder.

When he uses me against her, I hope she'll feel it.

I don't even know how to move on from this. Moving on is expected. I get that I'll have to go back to living my life... without him. But how do I do it, when I think about him every day? When I think about Monday and I dread - DREAD - what's to come because I can't talk to him about it?