The Secret diary of Leila Palmer

Every second of my life even when i'm asleep. In my nightmare, i'm reminded of the deranged way i was born, and in my dream of who i could've been. And i can try and correct it to be as true to who i realy am and feel like i am in the deepest layer of my soul. Which i dream about most night. But it can never be fix and as close i'd get to the benign normality that i aspire there would still be a hole somewhere inside of me that can never be filled.

Every second of my life even when i'm asleep. In my nightmare, i'm reminded of the deranged way i was born, and in my dream of who i could've been. And i can try and correct it to be as true to who i realy am and feel like i am in the deepest layer of my soul. Which i dream about most night. But it can never be fix and as close i'd get to the benign normality that i aspire there would still be a hole somewhere inside of me that can never be filled.

When ever I meet someone that doesn't go through this I used to feel jealousy and self hate for that jealousy now I just feel happiness that someone else than me, especially my friends don't have to go through this cause it broke me I was born broken and can never fully recover I am so happy that you are whole, I cannot stress this enough I'm so tremendously happy for you. Even if you get hurt a lot you can still go on, for me, it has nothing to do with the level of hurt the world has inflicted on me, it's the way I was born already broken.