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The worst thing about getting older is realizing how left behind you have become. Everyone else continues to mature meanwhile you're stuck here with the same damn routine that you've been doing since 8 fucking years ago. You'd think having a job would have shapen you up by now but no, you continue to daydream and having stupid little fantasies while everyone else actually makes connections and have their hobbies. And you wonder why no one finds you attractive, while you watch the ppl around you actually be desired by other ppl, something you can only dream about in your head to one day happen to you. But it's not going to happen bc all you do is never take risks and sit alone in the only place you ever feel safe. Even if you did they'll get bored with you, you're a one trick pony that's only useful to get a job done. And you'll never be first in someone else's life.