kitsch

Of the person I think I've become

But if I would ask you

You'd tell me I didn't get the colours right

And that might be just what's wrong -

Me not knowing who I am

call me by your name scenes

Can you adore me just for once?

And I don't mean in secret -

But didn't know it was a place

It always felt like a feeling

But never like a home

Inside your arms

As close to your heart

As I can get

Feeling the warmth of your breath

And smelling your skin

You make it stop for a moment

And there is no way I could tell you

How much that means to me

And you say over and over again

How deeply in love you are

Without getting tired of my questions

I just really think

You and I

until we fall asleep

don't worry about my eyes

It's the stuff you say to me

How you're crazy about me

The words I just can't believe

That's what makes me weak

And I know I think too much

I know that sometimes hurts your chest

But you never get tired

With you

My head is always the same

Which is so different

From it's usual state

And that's what I like

Next to you

There's always room

Right where I couldn't find

A place I would fit in

now i can't even think of you

without seeing me underwater

because i know i'd let you drown

and the thought of you

what the sun doesn't see

are the ways that we cry

when we turn out the light

and how we reach for the ground

If you think I'm over you

You are more wrong

Than when I said

That I could live without you

If you think

I don't care how you are

I wish I could say that you are right

Letting go of people is hard

But realising that you can't let go of a person

Because there is still too much between the two of you

I hope that where we are

Is not permanent

And that we will come back

To different versions of us

That are made to stay

When will I finally

Let go of the hands that once held me

And start using my hands