The Great Unknown

Why did that just come out of my mouth?

I really can't believe this every time it gets good something always has to get in the way. I know you have to choose what's best for you. Even if that isn't what's best for us. I love you with all of my soul I know that you will grow into someone amazing. I just hope I'm there to see it. Maybe we could run away together and just explore without a care in the world. If this is the end. I don't know what I'll do. I'm at a breaking point in my life and if you leave i don't know if I'll ever come back. I've finally found a light and suddenly it's just darkness at the end of the tunnel. Every moment flashing before my eyes like I'm about to die. Our first kiss, our first date. Everything and what am I supposed to do with your birthday gifts? Just throw them away? I hope you choose me but, I can't be angry if you don't .

I love her and I'll never take that back. My minds driving me crazy and I wish you could get that. All the fights boiling down to one single conversation. The one we all dread and fear. How do I tell you the demons are coming back when you won't answer? What do I do when I need you and you aren't there? Because it isn't fair even when you left I was still there Maybe I'm an idiot but I'll always love you. You are my heart and my soul how do we stop this racetrack to destruction? I need to know. I can't lose you in this life. If I do I'll sink it'll all come rushing back to the point of no return. I don't want to be that person anymore. I want to love you. I want to cherish you. I want us to be perfect. Why can't we be proud of everything we've accomplished? Look at who we used to be. You saved me and you need to know that. I'm writing this so you can see what you really meant to me behind the arguments and fights you are my life.