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There’s certain people that you cannot speak on specific topics with because they don’t have the range, the knowledge, the empathy or the depth, to even understand where the fuck you’re coming from.
Been awhile
It's been years since I wrote in here and I honestly don't feel the craving to come write.. But I think that will come as I force myself to do it more? So where am I??
Today I went to work and met up with Ru on the ride there. It was a nice ride until the train stopped because someone presumably jumped on the tracks. I didn't give much thought to that and now that I am.. It's really sad. I honestly was just being annoyed at the 30 minute delay. But thinking of that person's family and how their day went is really sad. When I got into work russ called me into the office and asked me a goofy question that I'm not going to give much thought too. It was annoying though and I hope it was the last I hear about that.
We got new equipment bags today for events so that's cool. I also got stuck with the task of getting klot together for penn relays... Which is proving to be difficult. Going to have to pull ppl off of relays and put them on k lot... Yikes. Oh when I got in Bob may old lane ass was there and made some corny joke about me being late because I fell on the train and couldn't get up... Huh?
For lunch I grabbed a soda from the vending machine... A coke that gave me a headache. Bill rich had his daughter come in for an interview for the intern position which she will get. Barely spoke to her but she reminded me of the lady who came in Monday. Don't think I feel like having to new white chicks in the office at the same time. We need more brown ppl...
My mother has really been thinking about grandchildren and it's making me think about it too. I know I'm not ready but the urge to have a child is there. Idk.
I planned on coming home with Ru but, unbeknownst to me, my boss said during our meeting yesterday we would be leaving at 3 today. He probably said it during one of my zone out moments... Can only listen to white males speak for very short periods at a time. I do know that we are coming in late Monday and I'm off Friday and Tuesday. Going to try and set something up with Ru, see what her big head butt wants to do. I love that girl
I can't believe it's been this long. October is six years and I'm seriously feeling weird and anxious about that. I have no clue why but just thinking of being with someone so long is crazy. Met a man yesterday who has been with his wife for over 40 years and I can't even imagine. How much can you know someone after 40 whole years!?! Their every move has to be known before they make it. It sounds really beautiful and really scary and someone really magical lol.
I think I'm done writing even though none of this is deeply personal. Hopeful moon head sees this and decides to write too. I miss reading her stuff. I know she better draw tomorrow! I have plans to try and get a children's book but I need her to draw! So I can write some stories
“Every bed that we have ever slept in together is stained in your memory. And no matter how many times I wash those sheets or scrub those walls there will always be remnants of you somewhere in those nostalgically bitter rooms.”
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7/3/18-7/5/18
Kayla birthday is the 18th of July but I thought it would be cool for us to celebrate it over the July 4th weekend. Sam Smith was in town on that independence day so it felt kind of perfect. She and I are both huge fans and July 4th is a meaningless holiday to black people so...
I got an airbnb for 3 days/2 nights so we could turn the birthday concert celebration into a mini staycation. I got the tickets way back in January, it admittedly took about a day to finally cough up the dough to get the tickets. I'm so insanely cheap lol. The tickets were pretty good so I'm glad I paid the extra. The airbnb was about the same price but for a 2 night stay it was a pretty good deal. I ended up getting that about a month before our eventual stay. I didn't tell Kayla anything about the concert because I wanted so bad to surprise her, spoiler alert, I failed.
So the day of the airbnb check in Kayla and I met up in the sub, bags on hand. She was telling me that I didn't give her a train time. I didn't even look at them. No idea why she didn't just check it out real quick. Oh BTW, our entire stay the weather was in the 100s!!! So I was just a puddle the instant I stepped outside. So we got off the sub and waited about 20 minutes in the heat for the bus. I'm dying and Rudy just seemed chill. I don't know how that's even possible! After a quick ride on the bus we got to our stop and it was a short 4 minute walk to the house.
When we arrived we immediately started checking stuff out. And Kayla started to critique the place. The floors could have been swept better, especially since they requested no shoes in the apartment. All of the smoke detectors were gone and there were some exposed wires... Other than that and the insanely small bathroom... It was a really nice space. Wouldn't mind living there. The neighborhood was really cool as well. We had a chance to walk around and check some of it out and it was such the perfect example of gentrification. We saw white people walking dogs and moving in plants. Asian people in their garden and running a corner store. Black families cooking out and selling water ice. It was cool.
Our first day was too hot to go hangout outside so we chilled in and ordered food. The driver went to the wrong damn block and I had to wait outside in the heat for like 10 minutes. We just sat inside and watched Netflix/Hulu/YouTube until Ru felt like using me like a piece of meat to please her needs.
Oh! I almost forgot... So Ru and I tried to smoking for the first time. I got some from a friend of ours a few days ago and it was absolutely terrible. She wants to try again and I'm down for it... Just have to be a different type or something. Maybe it was stale?? Whatever it was it didn't get us high. We just had a horrible taste in our mouth. Let's see how next time goes.
We were watching TV and relaxing and around 830pm our old behind were tired and ready for bed lol. We took showers and got in bed and ended up staying up listening to music for hours. Think we got to sleep around 1am maybe 2am. After being used like a slave again. I slept okay but Rudy said I kept her up all night snoring.. The bed was pretty comfortable after awhile, the blankets were not. They were so weird and held heat. It was like a comforter with a sheet attached, I just didn't like it.
Day 2 was the 4th and I made some cool plans for us. I have to explain something first... So I couldn't tell Kayla we were going to Sam Smith concert but I still wanted her to pick her clothes for the night. So when I told her what to wear she immediately went into Kayla mode and kept trying to guess where we were going. I hate that she does this and I have to stop feeding into it. She guessed kitty cafe and just to keep her from guessing further I told her that was where we were going. Turns out the cafe is within walking distance of the apartment so it was a cool idea.
So we woke up and got ready after being used again. We walked to the cafe and it was so cool. In my head the cafe had kittens 🐱 all around and it didn't sound like the best idea.. But the cafe and the kitten area are separated. I made reservations the day before and I just assumed we would have the room to ourselves... For the price of a reservation that was the only thing that made sense. But anyway... The kittens were so adorable! It had to be like 20 of them in there... Unfortunately they were all for the most part sleeping. 😴 I got a really good strawberry 🍓 lemonade 🍋 and Ru got a milkshake 🍧 that thing was crazy! Glad I got a pic of it. We stayed about an hour and played with the little babies then headed back home. I showed Rudy hanging with Mr Cooper for the first time and she loved it. We have to watch that some more. Even though Kayla liked Holly Robinson body... It was okay... But wayyyyy to skinny legs. Anyway.
So we got dressed for the concert, I told Kayla we were going to see fireworks but I don't think she belived that for a second. She wore the shirt I picked out and she looked absolutely amazing. Legit wanted to make us late because I wanted her right then. Like she made us almost late to the kitty cafe for the same reason.... I called us a lyft and we headed out. The lyft was tight because someone else was there for a few and then we got stuck in traffic! That was annoying. Luckily we got there just as the opening act was going on. Wasn't feeling her so she and I went to get a drink and a t-shirt. Drink didn't really do anything. Sam Smith came on and he was GREAT! He was so good. I kept watching Kayla as she was watching the show and I couldn't help but be reminded how much I love this girl. She doesn't even notice probably but when Sam would hit a note or sing her favorite part she would do a head nod like she was feeling the hell out of it. It's so cute. I sang dumb loud until I felt like my voice was getting sore, which now that I think about it is probably why my throat was swollen Friday. I wish we got more pics together at the concert. We caught a lyft back home after waiting for this one couple to find the car. When we got home we were supposed to smoke again but ended up just in bed messing around until the unthinkable happened! After Kayla was done with me... She kicked me out the room because I kept her up the night before snoring!! So rude. To be real... I slept even better alone. Will never tell her that though.
Day 3 was our last few hours in the apartment and I wish it went better. It started off great. I woke up and went into the other room so I could use Kayla. That was fun and I enjoyed just laying on bed with her. I ended up getting a little grouchy because I didn't really get what I wanted but i guess that's just natural. We jumped in the shower and Kayla went around getting pics of the apartment. I have no idea why I took my grouchiness out on her about something so dumb but I did. I asked her not to take a pic of the messy bedroom and she did. So instead of being there with her for a few more hours I rushed us out and home. I barely talked to her during the trip home and once I was almost to my stop I regretted it. I started to miss her lol. Idk if it was so much of me missing her or me knowing I would and knowing I threw away 3 hours of time with her.
The trip was fun and I want to do it again soon. I absolutely love this girl and enjoy hanging with her. She has truly become my best friend and the love of my life. Our anniversary will be here shortly so maybe we can plan another staycation. Who knows, maybe we can go somewhere other than Philly.
Took some sleeping medicine and now I feel like I'm going to die in my sleep...
Blahhhhhhhhh
I'm not depressed anymore. Which is great! I think it all faded away last week when I realized I was finally done with this job. This is my last week and I don't even really count Thursday. Can't wait to get this week over with. Have to celebrate next week somehow.
Wednesday I'll be working there and my other job, but that's cool. I'm excited to work that. Not really sure what I'll be doing next.. Just know I had to leave that job before I cut my wrist.
My mom wants me to make my pie crust for her so she can bake pies. I think next week I'll spend all my free time cooking! I have been wanting to do that and what could be a better time?
Maybe Kayla will stop being upset with me by then... Hmm...? Hope so, over fighting with this woman. Miss just chilling and enjoying each other.
Some girl at work yesterday told me she thought I was going to tell her I was "like 43"? Huh? About to give myself a face mask with bleach and draino... Can't have this. All Morgan Freeman in the face
Have so much TV to catch up on. That should be fun. Then I can hopefully move onto a manager role at my other gig. I need to send an email to my boss so I can see if he was serious about that. I actually like that job.. Which I'm surprised by. Even though I've been there ten years... It's not so bad. That may be because of Rudy.. But either way.
Ummm, haven't wrote anything on here in awhile. I have missed it. It feels good to just write your thoughts as they come to you. I should do this more often.
I'm mad Ru hasn't used her birthday present yet. I'm anxious for her to get some work done. Don't know what to do to help though.
I'll also have more time to look for a dog to adopt! I need that to happen soon. Hopefully before my bday.
Okay that's it. Peace.
Side note, I think I'm going to start playing the moesha diary music when I write on here. Just seems fitting.
I hate being in that mood where nothing’s really wrong but nothing feels right either

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