a while back now, even if it doesn't seem like it:
1. those three songs i played for a dollar at the empty bar. two about distance. all matched that mid-fall breeze that was taking over. why distance? i was right there with exactly who i wanted to be there at the moment. she had even flashed her tits at me when i came back to the table. nothing came of it and a couple months down the line it was too late.
2. not too long later, maybe a few weeks: they were all present that night, not just a couple of them. the dj played a dance remix of 'everywhere' by fleetwood mac. i found out later they were all on mushrooms. made a lot more sense that way.
now i really only know the one who didn't come out with us often, the one i didn't know that well until much later. heard 'everywhere' on the radio the other night after i left her house. not the dance version.
the passing of time was the disance felt in those then already decades old songs. when i put them on i wasn't thinking about something i would reflect on anytime i heard any of them, but that was what happened.
the other one though? sometimes i do feel like i want to be with her everywhere. only sometimes though. life is strange.