That Relationship Thing

I briefly, BRIEFLY, talked to this guy whose best years were either ahead of him or behind him. He was definitely not currently in them, and I don’t know if they even existed in a year that started with a 2. He was exhausting to engage with. It was one self inflating story after the next. Little conversation at all. But let him tell it, he was the most, the best, and quite extraordinary. He…

I’m writing this with a (amended to be a handful of) text wishing me a Happy Valentine’s Day. I’ve had a couple of calls that gave me room to be my softest self, too. I’m grateful. If no one acknowledged me in my singlehoodness, I’d be upset. But I’m annoyed, too. Both things can be true at the same time. There’s this part of me that wishes I had a special person to celebrate this “special”…

The first thought that sprang into my mind, around midnight, was that I’ve probably missed middle age. I probably didn’t recognize it. I didn’t realize it was middle age. Sheesh. Mercy. The second thought was is that sleet? It was, and my home, street, neighborhood, and city have been sitting impatiently under a sheet of ice since then. My birthday has consisted of preparing three square meals…

I had been getting to know this man for a few weeks. He’s not my typical type. Not the typical look, lifestyle, or job. Nothing that would usually pull me in, but he was nice, interesting, and worthy of a chance. Until… We got trapped in an LGBT+ conversation, and everything fell apart. He thinks it’s ridiculous. Laughingly said, “God makes no mistakes.” I pounced. Because, “agreed. He does…

I have been having this argument. Kinda. I’ve been embroiled in the end of a relationship with someone. I’m done. They’re trying to convince me why I shouldn’t be. He loves me. It’s not enough. I told him that. He didn’t appreciate my honesty. Me: “You love me up to your capacity. But, it’s not enough for me.” Him: “I love you completely.” His words were sharp. He’s getting angry, but he…

View this post on Instagram A post shared by Jay Shetty (@jayshetty) Weekly Sit Down https://www.instagram.com/p/DGLhS4DPv7o/?igsh=bHltYTZiOGJnZ3dh Yes! This! Duh! My most successful relationships have healthy communication and are stabilized in truth. We kindly and politely tell it like it is, and it has made us better. Communication can be hard. Having dedicated time etched into busy weeks…

I don’t pick partners well. I have had some of the most toxic relationships. For that reason, I’ve stayed mainly single. I recognize that I can’t trust myself, and single is safe for me right now. There’s enough going on in my life to not willingly add a layer of crazy just because. So, I don’t. I haven’t. I date. I go on dates. I flirt. I have 32 text messages going and a few long phone…

I don’t want to argue. I really don’t want to argue WITH YOU. I really don’t want to argue with you, because I don’t respect you. I don’t think you’re intelligent. AND/or I don’t think you’re open minded enough for this argument to be effective in any way. Or, maybe I’m not open minded enough, because I don’t respect you and I don’t think you’re intelligent. *SHRUGS* I’m witty all the…

I was listening to this comedian talk about wedding vows. I apologize because I don’t remember his name. He was focused on “to have and to hold.” Beautiful take on the vows, and I found myself laughing fully too. This made me think of all the vows and the effect they’ve had on my life and relationships. AND how they’d led me to the defiant space I currently live in. What was my realization?…

If I told you how many dating starts I’ve had recently, that didn’t go ANYWHERE, you’d be shocked. If I told it’s because I’m the problem, you’d be disappointed in me. But, let me explain. If it doesn’t feel like the end of a 90s sitcom, series not season, I don’t want it. I don’t want any of it. I mean the tears, long rocking hugs (full frontals and side-to-sides), and big smiles with extra…