Leakage WARNING

It's totally normal, when I first began the 'masturbating' stage in life I found it really weird and uncomfortable too. It's something you either love or hate i'm afraid but you work on it, but don't just dive straight in at the finger pounding.. Start with just clitoral orgasms, find out what feels good there and go for it! Pillow humping is GREAT for a clitoral orgasm... Then the urge for something inside you will progress and eventually the idea of having your finger (maybe fingers after progression) will be a very pleasuring though and feeling. But it takes practice, time and arousal. Just do what makes you feel comfortable, when you properly have sex it'll be fine.