leaf sheep

For those unfamiliar, I, like many people, become extremely sensitive after orgasm. Continuing the stimulation that brought me to orgasm is extremely intense, sometimes so overwhelming as to be akin to pain. Continuing to stimulate me after I've climaxed this way is called post orgasm torture.

I think I become more sensitive this way than most, and I think it's REALLY hot. I don't really consider myself a masochist, but that's mostly because I'm not very interested in pain. However I am interested in this kind of overstimulation that produces a similar kind of impulse to pull away from you. It has a little bit in common with tickling that way, maybe?

In fact it's so intense that I can't really do it to myself, which is another part of what makes it so intriguing. It's in that really fun category of things I love to hate. As far as I can tell, if you were to do it to me, my response would be some combination of bluescreening, trying to get away, and begging you to stop. In the moment, I hate it, but it's exactly the kind of suffering I'm desperate for someone to inflict on me.

It also pairs great with bondage (another favorite) and edging (another favorite!) because you basically need to restrain me or I will move away/stop you, and it's a great way to punish cumming without permission such as during an edging session.

Ok so yknow how sometimes you'll see someone cute but there isn't really an opportunity to talk to them and you're busy and so you kind of just go. 👀 I am looking respectfully. And then you don't really give it a second thought bc there are lots of attractive people in the world and this is kind of a normal thing?

Right. Had that today. Was getting ready to run a dnd game (technically not dnd it was Draw Steel but that's not important right now) at my local makerspace and I noticed a group going through for a tour and one of them was really cute. But I was busy moving stuff down to where the session was happening and I was busy so it was just like. Oh hey that person is nice to look at, neat.

And then as I was getting ready to start the session, that tour group was leaving through the gallery area we were playing in and she looked over and went "ARE YOU GUYS PLAYING DND" and came over and kind of jokingly sat down like she was going to join us. But then she noticed I had all the minis out and we started talking about resin printing and wax casting bc apparently she did that professionally in some context? And she was super cool and smart and we both nerded out for a second over metal casting and 3d printing

And she told me her name but it left my brain 3 seconds later! I remember it started with a K and it was a really pretty name I hadn't heard before but now its gonna drive me insane. But it sounds like shes planning to become a member at the makerspace and wants to get involved in some of the stuff I've been setting up the past few months so hopefully I get a chance to learn her name again???

Recently I've been learning leatherworking and its really fun! I made myself a belt as my introductory project and it's actually so nice and sturdy, I wear it every day and I'm never going to buy another belt in my life. Also made some nice little mystery braid bracelets for myself and a friend. It's a surprisingly forgiving medium and I enjoy the way that by being methodical and careful and patient for a while, I can end up with a nice-looking and durable object, even as a beginner.

I also just get so much satisfaction from using things I made myself in my daily life, same with ceramics and baking/eating with the dishware I make. (Bonus points when I can make something with the thing I made. This summer I baked a souffle in a rammekin I made at a ceramics class and I was so damn proud of myself)

Now. I'm not particularly into petplay, but collars have some appeal, maybe one with a bell. OOOH or a little ring you could pull on to bring me closer to you? Something to wear during scenes or maybe to signal free use / CNC availability when we're around the house? I think it would be such a cute anniversary present or something like that.

I also love what it signifies as far as the submissive's contribution to the dynamic. My submission is already the greatest gift that I can give, and while submission is often seen as being reactive and passive, it's also a big risk and requires me to be very intentional. By providing the collar myself instead of my dominant buying/commissioning one, I am actively reaffirming my commitment and signaling that I am giving my submission, not just receiving domination.

Also, making the collar as opposed to buying one is representative of the care, attention, and effort I contribute to the relationship. I've carefully considered every part of it, and put in the work to make it the best it can be. It also represents the fact that I choose the nature of my submission, just like I choose the shape of the collar. Even as I hand you control, I still get to choose exactly what power I give you as I decide my limits.