My Law of Attraction Journey

I am a catch

Any guy would be lucky to have me in his life and even luckier to date me

I’m beautiful

I’m strong

I’m smart

I’m passionate about things I love

I’m so loveable and loved

I’m happy

I’ve been meaning to write down my journey till now somewhere and I figured tumblr was just a good a place as any. 

I think like most post, I found the law of attraction when I hit a low point in life. I was going through a break-up I searched the internet on ways to get my ex (now known as an SP) back. Since circumstances don’t matter, I won’t recite too much of the old story, just ones that pertain to my journey now. 

I stumbled upon a reddit post that mentioned ‘LOA’ and something in me made me look up what that meant. Enter, Law of Attraction into my life. I had heard about it before and I thought it was cool, but didn’t think twice about it. 

I gave up immediately on those online relationship coaches that “guaranteed my ex back” if I followed their guide. Honestly, that just seems like BS to me at this point, but I respect the psychology behind it. Can’t say that I won’t be using some techniques they mentioned lol. 

However, when I found the law of attraction something magically went “click” in my head. Something just made sense there. I still can’t explain why I dived head first into this new world, but I feel like it’s helped me heal emotionally to some extent. 

When you understand what the Law is, you almost think it’s too good to be true. Makes you wonder why some people are starving, some are sick, etc; But the Law isn’t a simple practice. It isn’t simply you saying your wish out loud and have it magically land on your lap. It’s a mental practice. You have to practice the law to reap the benefits. 

One thing I hope people understand is that there is a fine line between putting in effort and having the universe deliver your desires. More often than not, the universe is going to deliver the journey for you to get to your desires. For example, if you are trying to manifest a dream job, you’re not magically going to get an offer letter by putting in zero effort. That’s why it’s so important to align your actions towards your desires. 

Anyways, back to my journey. 

I stumbled upon a subreddit called Neville Goddard soon after finding the Law of Attraction. Before that, I had watched hundreds of youtube videos and tried to manifest a text or something from my ex but it never happened. And I got frustrated. But I know now that it’s because I didn’t believe that it could happen. I was just wishing for something I believed wouldn’t happen. Do you see the problem there?

I was just emitting more lack out into the universe, of course he wasn’t going to text me. I believed he wasn’t going to despite my meditations, and so he didn’t. 

That comes down to the subconscious and it’s beliefs. And trust me, it’s not easy to change how your subconscious thinks. You can say one thing, but your subconscious believes in another. 

So back to  Neville Goddard. I finally read more into him and his teachings and I finally decided to buy his books on amazon. I spent time analyzing his words and how they pertain to me and my journey. It definitely highlighted where I was going wrong with my journey. 

Neville stresses that you should live and feel from the end. For me, that meant I had to feel like I was already back in a loving and committed relationship with my ex. Which is hard to do when said person and you are clearly not together, let alone talking. 

Plus, how do you change your subconscious way of thinking? My subconscious knew that I was not together with my SP despite me trying to tell it that no, we are in a strong, loving, committed relationship. 

So, Neville suggests getting into SATS, a state akin to sleep. This is a prime time to alter your subconscious way of thinking. You keep repeating a scene over and over until it feels real and drift off to sleep feeling like that scene was real. In my case, I repeated a scene over and over of me and my SP but it was hard for me to keep replaying that and more often than not, I fell asleep thinking of something completely random. 

This is why the Law of Attraction isn’t as simple as people make it out to be. But I will say, the law is only as easy or hard as you make it out to be- it just depends on your beliefs. If you believe that manifesting and living in the end is easy, then you’re probably ahead in the game. 

So, now I’m trying to change my subconscious day by day. I work on trying to prime my subconscious when I go to sleep but i don’t know if I’m succeeding. 

One day, I hope to look back at this time and realize that all my efforts paid off. I’m happily married with my SP and we’re living in our dream home with our dream jobs and a family we love and care for. 

I’m not pretty -> I’m beautiful. Gorgeous.

I’m fat -> my body is perfect for me

I’m not deserving -> I’m deserving of everything I desire in life

No one will love me -> any guy who gets the chance to fall in love with me is lucky. I’m a freaking catch.

I’m not good enough at work -> my work is admired by my coworkers and managers! They trust me

So on and so forth. These small changes have brought so much happiness in my life and are not the honest truth. I’m so powerful!

I like to write these things down and re-read them every now and then. It’s so surreal how POWERFUL our thoughts and emotions are. How a simple thought plants a seed. The universe delivers in ways I never imagined possible.

For example: I kept thinking I wouldn’t get into my first choice grad school program and lo and behold I didn’t. I had the opportunity to apply again for the same term, with the same credentials to my name and for some reason I just genuinely believed I would get in this time. I got accepted the next day.

Another example is when I used online dating apps, I got really tired of the process. I realized I kept trying to force myself to find a relationship with the people I matched with. But I got tired of the whole thing and the I jokingly said to the universe when I matched with one last person before deciding to take a break for some time, “watch this be the guy I finally date”. And we did! I found what I was looking for when I was ready to let go.

Now, I’m trying to manifest a SP in my life. I know that I am a master manifester, master creator. I know I’m happy, strong, confident. I am deserving of all things I desire in life and that I get what I want in life. I always get what I want.