Lawfully Caffeinated

Hii, I'm Libra- I'm in my mid 20's and U.S based.

I already obtained my Bachelor's degree in Criminal Justice. I am currently studying and preparing for my LSAT and law school applications.

I decided to start this blog because I needed motivation to study and this is a good way to monitor and document my progress while keeping me accountable.

What I'm Studying:

LSAT Languages Tarot

Languages I'm Learning:

French Russian

Interests:

Art and Music Books and Literature Cats Coffee and Matcha Dancing Nature Movies and TV Photography Poetry and Quotes Politics Thrifting Records Witchcraft Writing

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-Donna Tartt, The Secret History

“That’s the best thing a girl can be in this world, a beautiful little fool”

-Allegedly F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby

Well I’m a girl and I am a beautiful little fool, because I believe wholeheartedly that love does conquer all. How can it not when I’ve conquered all the challenges I’ve faced and I still remain full of love? All the love I’ve shown. All the love that is returned to me through my cat's soft, strong purrs as it lays beside me. The love that is shown to me every day by the cells within me, fighting to keep me alive. I’m a fool and a lover, and I’ve conquered all.

How absolutely pathetic are y'all. This chat gps is truly an infectious plague that needs to be terminated along with its cult. No really, because how is it that students and members of “studyblr” and other little communities related to academia are casually posting things like “I was talking to chat gps..." Are u not embarrassed? Do u not see yourselves? Do y'all lack self awareness? Get fucked and get bent.

𝟶𝟷.𝟶𝟼.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟼

I completely forgot about my blog- but I'm back.

Updates for those who were keeping up with me

- I resigned from my position at the firm - I took my LSAT in November but had to retest because there was ongoing construction at my testing location that was very distracting - I was unsatisfied with my LSAT score and will be retesting once again - I obtained my passport last year and got it stamped when I left the country to visit my family abroad - I also became a dual citizen!

My 2025 Reads: - The Bad Ones by Melissa Albert (Dec 26 - Jan 7) - The Mare by Mary Gaitskill (Jan 7 - Jan 20) - Ask Not: The Kennedy’s and the Women They Destroyed by Maureen Callahan (Jan 26 - Feb 20) - The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern (Feb 20 - Mar 9) - Cleopatra and Frankenstein by Coco Mellors - Minor Detail by Adania Shibli (Aug 31- Nov. 21) - The Yellow Wallpaper by Charlotte Perkins Gilman

2025 DNF Reads: - Outlaw - Pride and Prejudice - Emma - The Poisonwood Bible - The Great Gatsby - Hell of a Woman - Coraline - Wuthering Heights - The Secret History - Crime and Punishment - Intermezzo

I truly believe that a book finds us in the moment that we're meant to read the book, and this isn't that moment for my DNF list.

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍: 𝙷𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚗𝚊𝚒𝚕𝚜 𝚑𝚘𝚕𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚙𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚙𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙻𝚂𝙰𝚃 𝚃𝚛𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚛; 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚘𝚏 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚜]

Groceries I've been into lately. Notice the pumpkin spice. Idc idc that it's too early. August is fall in spirit. You can feel the melancholy and nostalgia of fall creeping in the air. You can feel it lingering. Hovering- ready to pounce on us and engulf us in the arms and memories of Octobers past.

𝟶𝟻.𝟸𝟻.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟻 𝚆𝚎𝚎𝚔𝚎𝚗𝚍 𝙾𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠

Friday

My PCP doctor appointment was cancelled. How annoyinggg. I really need to talk to my pcp about a specific medication, and now I have to wait for rescheduling. Due to cramps, I spent the whole day resting and drifting in and out of naps. God bless those little heating pad patches you can stick on to your clothes.

Saturday

I took my mom to this cute little brunch place where we shared this big plate of biscuits with gravy and some mojitos. We sat at the bar since it was just us two, and I think the bartender was flirting with me a little bit- I didn't pursue it tho. We spent the rest of the day running tiny luxury errands for makeup, and other little unnecessary necessities.

Sunday

Dad wanted a cookout, so we had a cookout. I spent some time following up on my research while he prepped everything. My boss assigned me to research the Hague Convention after I mentioned my interest in international law because she needs to see how it ties in with something specific.

Monday

I slept in. It was gloomy and rainy. Surprisingly it wasn't humid, it felt nice and cool outside. However, I had to run some errands so I spent most of the day doing that, as well as prepping my things (and self) for the week. I'm working full time now. I only worked two days a week, and now I'm going in Tues-Fri. I'm assuming I have Mondays off because I spoke about it, since I have too many doctor appointments and need a designated appointment and errand day.

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍: 𝚃𝚊𝚗 𝚏𝚎𝚕𝚝 𝚌𝚘𝚠𝚋𝚘𝚢 𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚘𝚙 𝚘𝚏 𝚠𝚘𝚘𝚍𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚊𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚊𝚗 𝚒𝚌𝚎𝚍 𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚝𝚎 𝚒𝚗 𝚊 𝚖𝚊𝚜𝚘𝚗 𝚓𝚊𝚛; 𝚖𝚢 𝚋𝚛𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚙𝚞𝚛𝚜𝚎; 𝚌𝚘𝚠𝚋𝚘𝚢 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚝𝚜 𝚙𝚕𝚘𝚙𝚙𝚎𝚍 𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚙𝚎𝚝 𝚋𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚍]

𝟶𝟻.𝟷𝟽.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟻 - 𝟶𝟻.𝟷𝟿.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟻 𝚆𝚎𝚎𝚔𝚎𝚗𝚍 𝙾𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠

I was so exhausted on Friday that I slept through the night and most of Saturday. Work has been draining me mentally, emotionally and footically (not a word, but these heels are killing me lol).

I ran some errands Sunday and nursed someone through a hungover. Today was spent with a professional connection to establish a lead for a major event that I want to host for the organization I'm involved in and my therapy session.

I thought I was going to leave my therapy session in tears, but I think I might be processing through things a lot better than I expected because I didn't even tear up and I had some great introspection in the situation.

It is now 1:32 AM Tuesday May 20 and I'm waiting to be lulled to sleep by the severe thunderstorm that is going on outside my window.

Tomorrow's Agenda:

-lunch with mom during hour -follow up emails -follow up calls with clients re: evidence needed -complete practice lsat exam -registration

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍: 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚔 𝚜𝚎𝚝𝚞𝚙 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝙼𝚊𝚌𝙱𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚘𝚙𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚙𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚜 𝚋𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎; 𝚌𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚎 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚙 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚘𝚛]

𝟶𝟻.𝟷𝟿.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟻

I mentioned being a legal assistant for a law firm specializing in civil and family cases- well this is a relatively small firm. It's the main attorney, her mom who works as a paralegal, her aunt/godmother who takes on office management and paralegal duties, and then me, working alongside them. This is a family family law firm. So naturally, the dynamic is a bit off, and even problematic at times- for me at least. I've already encountered certain issues at the firm due to this, and I'm waiting for my appointment with my counselor to help me navigate this in a professional manner while keeping things as nice as possible in the firm.

I'm so glad I decided to go back to therapy counseling

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍: 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚘𝚏 𝚕𝚎𝚐𝚊𝚕 𝚝𝚎𝚡𝚝𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚜; 𝚖𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚒 𝚐𝚕𝚊𝚜𝚜]

But gave up on the journal because I hate writing it out, and typing it out isn't enough.

What would you recommend to someone who is facing his last exam of this semester (i am graduating) but does not have energy for anything? :( I know, its my last, but Im absolutely not happy but scared and anxious... How to encourage myself? How do you do your last exams when finishing semester? Im sooo drained of all energy..

Thank you!

Hii! thank you for that!

I remember my very last semester of undergrad.

It was awful- I was experiencing so much grief after I lost a pregnancy around May- during finals seasons of that semester. Then my last semester started (and I started strong), until I started to crash and burn. My depression and reality hit so bad I never left the apartment. Then during the last month I was on overdrive and received so much grace from my professors to redo certain assignments.

You didn't mention any serious life moment, but as someone that was dealing with so much at the time and still graduated, I hope this anecdote can offer you some comfort and relief to know that its possible.

You CAN do it, and you WILL do it. Don't think about grades, just do. Just focus on doing and completing your tasks. Don't aim for a "good" or even "perfect" grade. Just aim for the bare minimum. As long as you pass. This might seem like bad advice, but trust me, it'll help ease the stress and pressure. Once that pressure is gone, you'll be able to perform well.

For energy, don't do coffee. It's so dehydrating. Drink plenty of water and take naps if you can't do full sleep. And remember, once you're done with testing, the worst it over! Once you graduate, depending on what your plans are, you can sleep your days away and have very much needed rest and self care.

Also, I'm super happy and proud to hear you're graduating!! 🤍🤍

𝟶𝟼.𝟶𝟾.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟻

My boss had me on Pope Watch today. So here are my thoughts on that:

we do NOTTTTT  🙅🏻‍♀️ need a pope from the U.S 🙅🏻‍♀️ or a pope from Chicago 🙅🏻‍♀️❌or a pope from a place they named a "style of pizza" after 🙅🏻‍♀️❌🛑

But on a serious note, I do have some thoughts on this. When I saw the ceremonial robes and not the dressed down, humble white robes that Pope Francis preferred to wear, I knew it was over. I'm not even Catholic like that. I don't practice, but Pope Francis was a whole different type of pope and man. He made me feel proud to share a religion and ideology with him. So when I saw the contrast in their public image, it just made me feel like we officially lost Pope Francis and all that he worked and stood for. It left me with a longing sensation.

I don't like the idea of the US having a pope because we're already a superpower without such a crucial influence in the spiritual/religious aspect. But on the other side, I kinda like the idea that there's someone in the US with much more influence and power than the current pathetic excuse of a "president' that we have. Additionally, how great is it that our "vice president" has been talked down on by TWO popes.

I was just really rooting for cardinal Zuppi and having a Zuppi summer. Alas, c'est la vie.

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍: 𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚔 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚢𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚘𝚠 𝚠𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚋𝚘𝚝𝚝𝚕𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚙𝚘𝚙𝚎 𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚟 𝚋𝚛𝚘𝚊𝚍𝚌𝚊𝚜𝚝 𝚒𝚗 𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔𝚐𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍; “𝙸𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚖𝚎𝚣𝚣𝚘” 𝚋𝚢 𝚂𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚁𝚘𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚢]

𝟶𝟻.𝟶𝟼.𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟻

I've been working at this firm for about two months now and the novelty is wearing off and the cracks in the work environment are showing, so that's fun 🙃 I have like ten open cases I'm handling as of now, and various leads as well as a new attorney I'll be shadowing.

The stress is a bit overwhelming in the moment, but I'm definitely getting better at compartmentalizing. I love getting in the shower and "washing off" the stress; picturing the stress is being carried by the stream of water and down the drain.

Something that's been upsetting me however, is the casual use of AI in the office. Obviously no one is feeding personal info to the system, but still. The office manager constantly talks about using chat gps to help her with emails. But girl- if you can't even draft an email on your own, then what are you doing handling our client's most stressful and low points of their life? Still Corporate 9-5 life and stress > retail/food life and stress

[𝙿𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍: 𝚝𝚘 𝚐𝚘 𝚌𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚎 𝚌𝚞𝚙 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚢𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚘𝚠 𝚌𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚎 𝚌𝚞𝚙 𝚜𝚕𝚎𝚎𝚟𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜 "𝚋𝚎 𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚍" 𝚙𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚘𝚗 𝚒𝚝; 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚔 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚔𝚝𝚘𝚙, 𝚢𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚘𝚠 𝚠𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚋𝚘𝚝𝚝𝚕𝚎, 𝚐𝚕𝚊𝚜𝚜 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚌𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚎, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚟 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔𝚐𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚏 𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚒𝚌𝚎]