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derek & amelia - fingers and clothes

I don't think Amelia has done anything too wrong with the Cass stuff, her and Toni weren't together so its not like she cheated. It's not going to help things and its obviously going to set them back but it'll be interesting to see where Amelia goes from there and how she deals with the confronting feelings of knowing someone chose her and now she's maybe lost them (i don't think she has but I assume she might think that). I think Toni did the right thing in hearing Celine out but ultimately given they did have a life together and it seems like Celine was actually willing to make an effort but obviously she is not who Toni wants. I'm sure Toni will be hurt but its not something that cannot be overcome.

I don't like the Cass stuff simply because I'd have preferred to see what it would be like to see Amelia with someone who chose her and them navigate their life together and work through their stuff together. Amelia is very complex and it would have been nice to see her develop a relationship with Toni in the next season and what that would look like. How would Amelia reconciles her old flight mentality with the conflicting feelings of maybe discovering/accepting she does want some kind of domestic life with someone like Toni who maybe she feels sees all facets of her more acceptingly than others have and how Amelia copes with getting what she wants and if she could embrace that. I suspect instead we'll get some dragged out will they wont they finally get together rather than the more interesting dynamic of actually seeing them together navigating a life together and the baggage and tough choices that comes with that.

Sorry for this being so long but I really enjoy your thoughts on Amelia and her character journey and evolution since we first saw her on PP til now.

hi! don't apologise at all for the length i love these discussions and especially when it's not me shouting into a void haha 🥰 i'm glad you like my posts

first off i 100% agree she didn't do anything wrong and that they will be fine eventually. in the scene where she asks toni to choose her they explicitly said they hadn't defined anything, and with toni literally avoiding her and not making a choice i don't blame her for going for a hookup. obviously the timing was diabolical though. but yeah, having no build up and cass randomly in her apartment is the cheapest drama possible which is to be expected. i hope they don't get her even more involved with amelia. i don't usually get the rage at love triangles but i just finished watching the oc where they had an inability to create drama outside of that and i'm a bit sick of it 😭 i would have been less peeved at celine joining grey sloan à la addison if they wanted to continue the mess.

i find that perspective on the marriage thing super interesting. i can see that being the case, seeing as with owen we're supposed to take her rushing into that marriage as a symptom of the tumor, whereas she never actually got to the altar with anyone else. and her seeing the marriage that way despite the tumor and previously calling herself a terrible wife was surprising to me. but of all the characters to change their mind on such things i wouldn't be surprised if she does decide she wants domesticity. i keep thinking recently about how in s17/18 she seemed to equate the specific situation of lockdown with 4 children while meredith was dying and lack of access to her usual support system with domesticity. but then she moved back into the house with her sisters and the same kids after her and link broke up (until it burned down lol). i know it's not the same as being their primary caregiver, but still. and with toni having a kid too it would be something to get into.