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As the above picture (yup, that's me!) illustrates, I love the contrast between adult looks and diapers. My real life is highly successful and adult (and I love diapers), so it suits me :). I've got a quick related fantasy to share. Daddy has bought me a fantastic lingerie set - including a garter belt and stockings. I'm wearing Louboutins and an Alexander McQueen dress. I've got fancy jewelry and professional makeup and hair. I'm his perfect high-class arm candy for a fancy cocktail event. What I give up for all that is control. That I wear a diaper, and everything under it is his. It is not mine to control or to touch. Only he will check me, change me. To show my lack of control, I must surrender to any urge to pee. I charm his friends and business associates with my intellect and stories of my international adventures. They don't notice when my face changes just ever so slightly during the conversation. But he does. When he pulls me away, they think he's telling me how ravishing I am and feeling me up. But he's asking if I'm wet and checking if I need to be changed. When we disappear to his hotel room, it's not for a quickie, it's for a fresh diaper. Every cocktail I sip, I know where it's going. It keeps me constantly turned on. Every time I feel the urge, I let go - as he instructed. It sends a shiver of excitement down my spine, and by the end of the night, I'm going crazy. As successful and beautiful as I look, I'm actually surrendering control on an almost constant basis. Whether my diaper is fresh and dry or totally soaked, I can't escape the feeling of it on my most intimate areas - a constant reminder. As I mentioned in my last post, many of my fantasies with men aren't sexual. But this one is. After a night like that, I want to be ravished. I would beg to be taken, to get some release after all that tension. I would be down on me knees, using my mouth to get him hard. Not to get a change, but out of desire. The stimulation of the diaper, and not being able to touch myself has driven me crazy. I know the way to release is with him inside me, and I am too turned on to stop myself.