misguided ghost

I miss you so much, Its been over 2 weeks since we’ve spoken. I don’t know if you still want me but I want you, What’s this obsession with you. I’ve never felt like this about anyone. I am writing these stupid letters  because I am so overwhelmed, it’s like a myriad of colors are bubbling up in my mind and it’s also like thousands of hummingbirds flittering around my head. It’s all so overwhelming, I could cry and it certainly hurts because it’s a constant mystery to me about how you feel about me. You’re a mysterious boy aren’t you? You don’t let anything out, like a jar of hidden secrets. Fine, keep your world shut, don’t open it up. All I want to do is make you happy, why won’t you let me? I keep imagining your lips, those soft pink lips across mine. Your hands, I want to hide my hands in yours, I want your marks on me. Mark me yours baby. Do you not know how desperate I am? I am longing for you. Come bother me

night and day

the queen’s gambit is a chess opening that starts with the move d4/d5/c4…

“Friendship is never untinged with amorosity.“ — Virginia Woolf