LaughingToSleep

Day 4? Got praised in work for doing such a good job on last night's late shift today which goes to show that I am improving. However I have a constant feeling of dizziness and nausea, so much so that I'm going to make a doctors appointment soon so that hopefully they'll help me get through withdrawal and not berate me too much for stopping cold turkey. The symptoms are getting worse with each day and I'm hoping that I won't have to go back onto them to lessen the symptoms, it just seems counterproductive to me. Let's hope I'll be able to get through the weekend without any problems.

Day 2 I did ring in sick for work yesterday, I said I had a migraine which wasn't a complete lie. I slept for two hours and when my mam got home and asked why I wasn't in work, I told her and she said I've come off them wrong and will feel weird for a few days now. Today wasn't so bad, I had some very vivid dreams last night for the first time in what feels like a decade. Despite my high blood sugar in the night I would have slept the whole night through. I had dreams about the two guys that I fell hardest for, the first one I dreamt that I was trying to break up him and his wife, the second I dreamt that he was angry at me for not wanting to fuck his girlfriend. I had panic attacks when I dreamt of him previously but I woke up in a good mood so I'm taking this a good sign. I've felt fine throughout the day with a constant dizziness and I accidentally injected myself twice for a frappé which confused everyone. Especially me, I don't remember doing it the first time. This worries me because if I do this often while I'm in my withdrawal fog, I could seriously harm myself. So every time I inject now I'll leave a dot on my skin with pen so I know that I'm safe. I have a busy day tomorrow, my best friend has her wedding dress fitting which I'm off to in the morning and I have a six hour shift in the evening. Kinda worried about how I'm gonna react to it. Probably won't achieve much in my shift but I'm gonna explain to my boss tomorrow what's going on and hopefully she'll understand.

Day 1. Today is my first day without any antidepressants in my body. This morning I woke up in a good mood, alert, cuddly and playful with my SO. Though soon after the dizziness has set in and an overwhelming tiredness, I have a foggy headache and it feels like I have motion sickness, despite me sitting down stationary for the past hour. I've looked up symptoms of withdrawal and dizziness and fatigue are in a high percentage of those who come off antidepressants, these could last up to 6 weeks. Gonna try and have a nap and see if it will clear my head up a bit, if it doesn't I may have to call in sick. It's making me nauseous to move my legs so I'm not gonna be able to do a shift tonight.