larvatus prodeo.

“I seem to be what I'm not, you see”

That's what I am worth

The pain and suffering scale

(Ignore my bad edit)

My lenormand reading for the next quarter (Febuary/March/April)

Coffin Child Sun

Cards 1 + 2: The ending of a phase gives way to a fresh, innocent start.

Cards 2 + 3: New beginnings lead directly to great success and happiness.

This combination signals a definitive and positive conclusion to a difficult or stagnant situation, allowing for a truly bright and clear fresh start. The Coffin's necessary ending clears the space, and the Child acts as the catalyst for the Sun's ultimate success. You are celebrating the end of a dark period, paving the way for genuine happiness and clarity in a new venture or phase of life. This represents a highly favorable transformation.

It's not a bad feeling but I am alone

Even with your 2 am calls

She can hear so we disappear

Even when we are on the phone I am alone

I can hear her listening, it makes me uncomfortable

I can't share

I have nothing to share as I am nothing, do nothing, am useless

I feel so powerless

I am waiting

Spending my time losing my mind in my hole in the wall, worrying about cats, about nosebleeds, about food, about the weight, about you

I am waiting and am in suspended animation

I can't do shit

Yes my depression is anger turned inward, towards my ineptitude

God I fucking Hate myself