lachrymose

oh, I have to remember to remember what I told myself when I was smart and 17. sometimes I forget that I am still who I was and I'm allowed to think the thoughts I thought when I was brave and it's okay to want to go back to then because then is when i possessed the power that most lose after some time of being thrown around the world while everyone chants "one of us" but i am not "one of us" and I'll never be "one of us" because I'm one of me and there's only 1 of me so I need to love her because I'm all she has and all she will ever have. after all, she is me and I am her and I was brave and strong and smart and I have it in me I just need some time to rest. slow down. not please, but thank you.

oh to be anything but human in 2024

don't do mushrooms unless you want to let go of all your worldly possessions and only feel feelings. nothing of substances means anything to me anymore, I just think and feel and feel and think and it's great but the world wasn't built this way for people to feel, it was built for people to do and I did everything I wanted to. I'm tired of doing, I just want to keep experiencing feelings and emotions without the burden of survival

i’m here       and now i’m good

“shut your mom up” is french for “shut-up your mom”

like the moon i live my life in many recognizable phases but as the moon i am only in one place for a moment. momentarily me, momentarily in your life chase me as the sun does the moon