A bunch of random stuff

hey did anyone notice this sucks ass?! :D do we feel the eventual contempt i had for this idea in that last panel?

anyway bonus yellow

pisses me off forever and ever that no one gaf about being brain scans. WHY ARE YOU ALL SO HAPPY…!!!! be sad, angry and confused at the same time NOW!!! have increasingly complicated feelings on humanity and your personhood NOWWW!!!! QUESTION YOUR HUMANITY IMMEDIATELY!!!! resent the "real" version of yourself, get sick with envy, wonder if you're even the same person at this point, ask yourself if you're even allowed to be different… pleaseee… just a single droplet of a hint towards any complicated feelings about it and i will die happy… i feel like it was made such a big deal and built up to for nothing 😭 why tf should i care about their non-digital selves if they don't care about them as well? i've been following POMNI not whatever her "real" name was. GENUINELY WHY DID NO ONE HAVE ANOTHER REACTION OTHER THAN HAPPY?!!??!? pisses me off ..

maybe the real horror was realizing the show was never going to explore the most interesting implications of them being brain scans 🥹 whatever i'll make my amazing digital circus that's about humanity and finding personhood that explores each member's feelings on being brain scans MYSELF..!

I think the reason why is, because they *had* already dealt with those feelings.

Hear me out.

In episode 8 they began to grasp on the idea to abandone all hope of leaving and just stay there and live. Right after, Caine came and began a torture that lasted several days. We could see the aftermath of that, with them already reaching some sort of acceptance (when they decide to go to the cafe to unwind and stay calm, even after Pomni gets knifed).

So, they dealt with some of those feelings off-camera.

Then comes the plan, one last ditch effort to do something. And said plan goes wrong. Caine is erased and, as Jax said, they lost even what they used to have, and now have nothing. Touched rock bottom. And sometimes, when you reach this point, what you find is not noise and open despair, no, what you find is nothingness and silence… Which is something that, imo, the show showed really well. Not to mention that this is also the moment they realized they’re just brain scans, meaning that there’s an idea that they’re still out there, somehow.

This is the moment they deal with their emotions, this is the moment the feelings raise up. Not in a cascade of loud insanity, but in a silent grief.

Then, we have the Jax situation.

The Jax situation, I feel, is the scream, is the loud, is the representation of all those feelings everyone has been dealing with in silence or offscreen.

And then, it comes the calm… when they work together to make a safe space for Jax; when they learn together how to conjure; when they start building something from nothing.

So, when Caine came back and showed their counterparts.. that’s not more sadness and grief and complicated feelings to deal with. That’s hope…

A hope they had long lost.

Freedom from the lives they thought they lost.

A promise of a new beginning.

And the return of an old friend.

Because, by that point, they realized they were more similar to Caine that they thought. Just data with memories and feelings.