Ancient Melody

- it's about Tommy's past but unrelated to anything we've seen before (no Gerrard then)

- Buck will spiral about it

- he'll ask for advice from Bobby (who's more experienced)

- he'll also seek Maddie's advice and Josh will join in (even though he's not particularly close to Buck. so his input must be based on... experience?), and about this Oliver said: "[the conversation] has a profound meaning beyond 911"

Oh, but honey I am SO with you. There's something about the way Buck looks up at his love interests while in crisis, and to see that made me go !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Because they are making something about their dynamic clear in a metaphorical way. And to have that moment where he's looking up at Tommy is interesting. Especially because it hasn't happened before, they tend to be on the same level, so they are misaligning here. Especially if Tommy is weirded out by the boils on Buck's face, this could be interesting, because it is another moment where Buck is vulnerable where he's not meeting Buck.

And I need to make this about buddie, sorry. A problem with buddie was that Buck looks up at Eddie when he's emotionally vulnerable, but if the conversation is about Eddie, they are on the same level. It's a bad pattern that they started to break during season 7, we got Eddie looking up at Buck and then them on the same level while Buck is feeling vulnerable with the coming out scene.

I wrote about 28472348097 metas on this but I have a point I promise, the buddie still intrigues me because I can't figure out why would they be shaking hands, so I'm kinda wondering if this isn't Eddie helping Buck up.

But I keep coming across bummies posts where they talk about Buck's crush on Tommy and that fantastic connection they formed (in the all of twenty minutes tops they had on screen with two kisses and a badly timed joke),

And I'm thinking, what crush? Tommy kissed Buck because he struck out with Eddie and Buck was available, Buck realized he likes kissing boys and the attention,

And thought 'we're here, we're apparently queer, let's give this a go.'

There was nothing there besides need for attention and curiousity.

He wasn't getting the emotional attention he needed so he reverted to the physical, in true S1 style with male Abby.

So again what crush??

Honestly, the fact that I didn't fall into the 911 fandom sooner is astonishing. Somehow never even heard of it until this season??? And I didn't even decide to start watching for the queer stuff! I decided to start watching when I saw the teasers about the cruise ship arc! The queer stuff was a bonus.

Anywho. As soon as I heard "Let it Burn" by Jared Benjamin I HAD to do some Buck fanart inspired by it. Really thrilled with how it turned out. Matches what I had in my head perfectly. All told this took about 28 hours. (1 hour of which was fighting with Premiere Pro to get it to export properly and not end up a glitchy mess. So sick of Adobe programs.)

For being so obsessed with his new romantic interest that he missed the alarm bells coming from Eddie again.

For being sure that Eddie was okay when in fact he's completely falling apart.

For Eddie being sick, but he didn't feel it necessary to tell Buck about it because he didn't want to burden him and interfere with his happiness.

For the fact that his relationship is alienating him from Eddie.

For the fact that Eddie is on the verge of a nervous breakdown again, and he just didn't notice it.

And Eddie will tell him that it's not his fault, but Buck won't be able to believe him, seeing that his friend, the love of his life, is losing himself.