Oxymoron

So tonight in my 2.5 HOUR long phone conversation with the guy I’m seeing, I was called a “sex pest” and a “violent kisser” in the space of about 3 seconds. He also called me intelligent and also said “you don’t know how endearing it is for you to say that you find my interest in history endearing” and holy shit guys I really like this guy

I keep seeing photos and snapchats of my housemates together and tbh I just don’t want to go back to Cambs. I love my course and I have some amazing friends but my housemates (three of my best friends from first year) seriously piss me off sometimes and I just want to be looking forward to going back and not be seen as some kind of heartless bitch.

Ok so Sam told me the truth yesterday and thank god she finally did bc it was PISSING me off but now that I know the truth I feel even weirder about it? Like there’s nothing wrong with having a fuck buddy that you live with but it’s a weird dynamic now in the house. Idk maybe it’s just bc I’m a prude but also I don’t want to see them get hurt... she says there’s no feelings behind it and that it’s purely a comfort thing but I can see that she really likes him. When he’s around she goes all weird and smiley and somewhat giggly and she blatantly doesn’t see that she likes him but it’s bloody obvious to everyone else. If I were to pose the idea that she might like him then she’d be all defensive and weird about it but if it were to help her realise that she likes him then I don’t know what’s happen and that worries me because if this all goes up in flames then it’d be 10 times weirder around here

Lol gtfo please don’t bother me with issues like “why was my fuck buddy in my dream?”