Barakei

War is in my veins

Long time no see. I was busy, my birthday came, I had an exam and then I went to the UK with my bf.

How do I feel now? Furious. Maybe it's the luteal phase but I don't care. War is everywhere, I'm watching War and Peace (the 1967 version), I went to see some tanks and my hyperfixation rn is Golden Kamuy.

Actually I think I'm kinda sad and idk what to do to get up again. If someone see this and can give me some advice I'll gladly read it.

Maybe at the end of the day I'm just a warlord.

Back at it

I've had the worst year of my life. Like my grades dropped, I was all day tired, everything sucked, I was filled with confussion.

But you know what? I think I'm growing stronger again. I'm getting more motivation (or maybe it's just my follicular phase). I can with everything and more and I just need to work hard and rest harder.

I have always felt like a knight on fire, tired of life, but willing to take another round. And my fire is growing and I want to take five more rounds. I want to achieve my dreams, I want the effort, I want again all the praise for my hard work. But I also wanna feel great again with myself and rest when I need to.

Take this is a sign to never give and to always, always keep going.

Okay this is really of topic, but the other day In bought an littlest petshop house, a pet and some accesories as a little reward for my finals.

AHHHH I LOVE IT SO MUCH

Today I finished my last exam and I finally ended my second year of college. But that's not important. At morning the ambient felt like those summer mornings when I was a kid and went happy to school knowing summer was finally here.

I wore loose clothes, which is funny because I've been wearing suits for most of the year. I made my exam and I wnet home. Ahhh home sweet home and sweet liberty. But this is new, I experience summer every year, but it hasen't been summer in a long time and I forgot how it felt.

I know for sure, this summer it's gonna have a lot of adventures but I also need to take care of myself and rest. Life's getting harder and I need to grow up.

ɢᴏᴏᴅɴɪɢʜᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴏɴᴇʟʏ sᴏᴜʟs ✮

𝚌𝚑𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚒 19 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝚘𝚕𝚍 (𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎) 𝚕𝚊𝚠 𝚜𝚝𝚞𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚒𝚜𝚝 𝚒'𝚖 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚊 𝚜𝚘𝚞𝚕 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕𝚜 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘𝚘 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑

𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚒𝚜 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚖𝚢 𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚕 𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚐 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚜𝚝𝚞𝚏𝚏, 𝚑𝚘𝚋𝚋𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚘 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎