Adoptee

I'll never know my true birthday

I'll never know if I was born in a hospital or not

I'll never know my biological family

I feel like I don't fit in anywhere or with anyone

I get awkward questions

People use the term "real parents"

I miss my birth family even though I never knew them

I don't feel like I'm Asian

It is hard to trust others and open up to them

Everyone knows I am adopted because I look different from my parents

Those who don't know I am adopted are surprised when they see what my parents look like

I have a feeling of needing to be perfect

To my Biological Father,

Today is Father's Day. As adoptee, today is tough. I can't wish you a Happy Father's Day because I don't you. Even if I did, I don't know if I could. This day brings up feelings that I would prefer to stay buried deep inside. I can't even begin to describe how I feel. Hurt and angry, that you gave me up. Sad, because I don't know you.

I have so many questions. Do you even think of me? Do you regret your choice? Why? All I know is that I would rather know you than not know you.

From,

Your Daughter

My sisters gotcha day, or as in our family it is called family day, was recently. It's hard to listen to my parents tell my sister that they are glad to have her in their family. Don't get me wrong, I love my sister with my heart and I would never not want her in my family. But what my parents did not acknowledge that day was the pain and loss of being abandoned my your parents. And that hurts, even if it wasn't my family day.