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what does it feel like to do heroin

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Actually this is an obvious question but it’s not what you might think. Let me explain it to you, I’ve been an opiate addict for a long time and tried many drugs. Drugs that are ‘uppers’ have the most ‘obvious’ euphoria. For example if you take adderall/coke/meth/speed/MDMA you will get this shining bright euphoria, self confidence, energy, and other drug-specific feelings (for meth like you are king or for MDMA like you love everyone). However, you owe these drugs back what they delivered to you. After a meth binge, or lots of MDMA use, or staying up all night on coke you will feel like shit. To an extent this aspect is similar to an alcoholic hangover.

On the other hand, for many people who experiment with heroin they are underwhelmed (not including IV usage, but most experimenters rarely ever IV first time). They just feel good, chill, happy, but they feel like this spooky drug ‘heroin’ hasn’t delivered. They are just mellow. Oh obviously it has all been a lie they will think. Heroin isn’t spooky, it’s chill. It’s not addictive like everyone else thinks. It doesn’t make you do stupid shit or stay up all day and hallucinate like amphetamines or coke. It doesn’t empty your serotonin like MDMA or give you a hangover like alcohol. People tend to just think oh, what a nice drug.

So the next day they wake up and everything is normal. No headache or shitty feeling–just a slight afterglow of that nice feeling. Oh it was cheap as well! It only cost $10 for a whole night of being high! I thought people said heroin was expensive? And then next weekend comes… There are all these drugs I could do but I liked heroin. It didn’t fuck me up,‘I could still think clearly. No hangover. No feeling like shit later. I still was awake. It just made me happy and content with life. Oh and it’s only $10! Well, I should get some more for the whole weekend. This is great! I will use Heroin on the weekends now!

Now let’s say this person works and has responsibilities. He knows he can’t go into work drunk, or on MDMA, or high. So he doesn’t. It’s actually simple. But heroin… Well the user might actually find they do better work on heroin. Instead of being sad or grumpy or depressed with his job… he is just… happy. Mellow. Content. Everything is fine and the world is beautiful. It’s raining, it’s dark, I woke up at 5:30AM, I’m commuting in traffic. I would have had a headache, I would have been miserable, I would have wondered how my life took me to this point. This point I’m at right now. But no, no, everything is fine. Life is beautiful. The rain drops are just falling and in each one I see the reflection of every persons life around me. Humanity is beautiful. In this still frame shot of traffic on this crowded bus I just found love and peace. Heroin is a wonder drug. Heroin is better than everything else. Heroin makes me who I wish I was. Heroin makes life worth living. Heroin is better than everything else. Heroin builds up a tolerance fast. Heroin starts to cost more money. I need heroin to feel normal. I don’t love anymore. Now I’m sick. I can’t afford the heroin that I need. How did $10 used to get me high? Now I need $100. That guy that let me try a few lines the first time doesn’t actually deal. Oh I need to find a real dealer? This guy is a felon and carries a gun–he can sell me the drug that lets me find love in the world. No this isn’t working, I need to quit.

To answer your question, heroin feels nice. That’s all, it just feels very nice. You can make the rest up for yourself. Attach your own half-truths to this drug that will show you the world and for a moment you will feel as clever as Faust.

Edit: Thank you for the kind words. I received help and I’m doing well now. Luckily I was able to pull up and get help right before I entered the deadly downward spiral. Some of my friends have not done as well. Sorry to steal the limelight from OP

A reply to this from Ifuxdalion

Reading that was more haunting than any anti-drug campaign that I’ve been exposed to. Thanks. A lot.

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The third image are tags on tumblr. They read #anti-drug campaigns should be run by recovering addicts #cause like #how are you gonna talk honestly about how a drug affects your life if youve never done it #how can you really communicate what it does to your life if you ignore the reasons people do drugs in the first place? #i dont think anyone’s gonna believe you when you say a drug is bad if you never acknowledge the way the drug makes you feel good #tags

deep sigh.

okay, so, us american friends......*please* make sure you are putting money into a 401(k) and have actually invested your 401(k) somehow. if you cannot afford to contribute to your 401(k), then your goal is to find a job that will pay you enough to be able to contribute to your 401(k). This is how you start saving for a retirement. (This or a ROTH IRA, etc but usually people start with a 401(k)). Then you have to invest that money.

when you do that, then you have become a shareholder. Literally anyone who has appropriately invested their retirement fund is a shareholder of something.

Your commentary here is just going around being angry at another person on the internet explaining how a system works because you feel helpless and shitty about that system. It's silly. You're being embarrassing. I did not create this system. I cannot fix this system. I can only explain what it is and what to do within it.

You do know I am not in charge of your paycheck, and am not your employer. so you also know that logically, being cranky at me does fuck all to fix anything, and all it does is spew some pent up frustration ineffectively at a total stranger. Just as an fyi, this is an unhealthy way to deal with those feelings.

I'm not a stand-in punching bag for all the things you can't say to your employer. I am not a straw person. Acting like I am and getting mad at me about your life is weird behavior.

"I'm not willing to leave the field which is already rife with neglect."

Okay, so you're not going to get a solution from me for your problem. You are unwilling to leave your field. Given that this is true, then the problem is that you need to get your employers to pay you a better living wage *across the whole field*, since you apparently can't just change employers.

So obviously you are unionizing, right?

Going to your bosses as a collective with your coworkers to bargain on behalf of your own interests? Not just whining on my post and acting huffy, snide, and passive aggressive with a side of martyrdom — over a legitimate explanation as to why you should absolutely know people who are shareholders?

Your contributed money normally sits in kind of a slush fund (often titled something like money market fund) which at that point is operating more like a traditional savings account. You nearly always need to go into your account and "buy" the actual stocks to put them to real work.