so, Ā this Ā is Ā a post Ā i Ā never Ā thought Ā would Ā happen Ā this Ā soon Ā & Ā one Ā iĀ neverĀ wanted Ā to Ā HAVE Ā to Ā make. Ā as Ā most Ā of Ā you Ā might Ā have Ā noticed, Ā our Ā activity Ā not Ā only Ā on Ā the Ā main Ā but Ā the Ā dashboard Ā as Ā well Ā has Ā been Ā on Ā the Ā decline. Ā i Ā will Ā take Ā responsibility Ā for Ā me Ā not Ā being Ā able Ā to Ā be Ā on Ā as Ā often Ā as Ā i Ā would Ā have Ā liked. Ā real Ā life Ā things Ā happened Ā that Ā have Ā caused Ā my Ā motivation Ā to Ā plummet. Ā ( Ā aka Ā being Ā house Ā ridden Ā for Ā almost Ā a Ā month Ā now Ā because Ā of Ā my Ā toe Ā & Ā a Ā few Ā other Ā things Ā ) Ā as Ā of Ā right Ā now Ā i'm Ā not Ā in Ā a Ā good Ā place Ā in Ā general Ā to Ā be Ā an Ā admin Ā & Ā ya'll Ā deserve Ā someone Ā that Ā can Ā be Ā far Ā more Ā dedicated Ā and Ā active Ā than Ā i Ā can Ā be Ā right Ā now. Ā so Ā even Ā though Ā it Ā breaks Ā my Ā heart, Ā i Ā have Ā to Ā close Ā kumiho.
i Ā want Ā to Ā apologize Ā to Ā everyone Ā because Ā i Ā feel Ā like Ā because Ā of Ā my Ā lack Ā of Ā activity Ā & Ā whatnot Ā i've Ā failed Ā ya'll Ā & Ā you Ā deserved Ā way Ā better Ā than Ā that. Ā i Ā wish Ā i Ā could Ā go Ā back Ā to Ā change Ā a Ā lot Ā of Ā things, Ā not Ā even Ā just Ā my Ā own Ā activity Ā level Ā but Ā at Ā the Ā end Ā of Ā the Ā day, Ā i Ā cannot. Ā there's Ā been Ā a Ā guilt Ā i've Ā been Ā carrying Ā for Ā not Ā being Ā able Ā to Ā be Ā on Ā and Ā as Ā active Ā as Ā i Ā should Ā have Ā been Ā for Ā you Ā guys Ā for Ā weeks Ā now Ā but Ā i Ā thought Ā if Ā i Ā just Ā kept Ā pressing Ā on, Ā things Ā would Ā get Ā better Ā & Ā would Ā eventually Ā go Ā away Ā & Ā i'd Ā get Ā my Ā motivation Ā back. Ā sadly, Ā that Ā didn't Ā happen. Ā this Ā choice Ā is Ā not Ā only Ā for Ā ya'll Ā because Ā you Ā deserve Ā better Ā than Ā to Ā be Ā hoping Ā for Ā a Ā more Ā active Ā admin Ā & Ā i Ā currently Ā can't Ā provide Ā that Ā but Ā for Ā my Ā own Ā mental Ā / Ā physical Ā health Ā as Ā well. Ā i'm Ā hopefully Ā going Ā to Ā be Ā going Ā back Ā to Ā work Ā soon Ā which Ā means Ā i Ā have Ā to Ā take Ā on Ā as Ā many Ā hours Ā as Ā i Ā can Ā to Ā make Ā up Ā for Ā the Ā weeks Ā & Ā weeks Ā of Ā pay Ā i've Ā missed Ā & Ā i Ā know Ā that'll Ā drain Ā the Ā life Ā out Ā of Ā me Ā and Ā cause Ā me Ā to Ā be Ā even Ā more Ā inactive Ā than Ā i Ā already Ā was.
hopefully Ā once Ā i Ā get Ā back Ā on Ā track Ā with Ā bills Ā and Ā hours Ā & Ā get Ā back Ā into Ā the Ā swing Ā of Ā things Ā at Ā work, Ā i'll Ā be Ā able Ā to Ā reopen Ā this Ā baby Ā up Ā because Ā when Ā i Ā tell Ā you Ā i Ā don't Ā want Ā to Ā HAVE Ā to Ā do Ā this, Ā it's Ā one Ā hell Ā of Ā an Ā understatement. Ā not Ā only Ā because Ā i Ā will Ā miss Ā it Ā because Ā ya'll Ā have Ā literally Ā been Ā the Ā best Ā group Ā of Ā muns Ā i Ā have Ā ever Ā had Ā the Ā pleasure Ā of Ā writing Ā with. Ā you're Ā all Ā so Ā kind, Ā understanding Ā & Ā patient Ā with Ā me Ā and Ā that Ā means Ā the Ā absolute Ā world Ā to Ā me. Ā i Ā might Ā have Ā come Ā up Ā with Ā this Ā concept, Ā but Ā it Ā was Ā ya'll Ā and Ā your Ā overwhelming Ā amount Ā of Ā love Ā and Ā support Ā that Ā kept Ā it Ā alive Ā & Ā i Ā will Ā never Ā be Ā able Ā to Ā describe Ā to Ā you Ā in Ā words Ā just Ā how Ā much Ā that Ā makes Ā my Ā heart Ā swell. Ā thank Ā you, Ā from Ā the Ā bottom Ā of Ā my Ā heart Ā for Ā not Ā only Ā showing Ā the Ā rp Ā itself Ā love Ā & Ā support, Ā but Ā for Ā being Ā amazing Ā human Ā beings Ā in Ā the Ā process. Ā i Ā just Ā think Ā that Ā right Ā now, Ā it's Ā a Ā busy Ā time Ā for Ā everyone Ā & Ā perhaps Ā not Ā the Ā best Ā time Ā in Ā the Ā world Ā to Ā try Ā and Ā keep Ā things Ā afloat. Ā i Ā am Ā sorry Ā i Ā had Ā to Ā come Ā to Ā this Ā decision Ā and Ā trust Ā me, Ā if Ā it Ā wasn't Ā the Ā only Ā opinion Ā i Ā felt Ā like Ā i Ā have Ā left Ā right Ā now, Ā i Ā wouldn't Ā be Ā typing Ā this Ā at Ā all. Ā however, Ā i Ā do Ā think Ā i Ā just Ā need Ā to Ā take Ā some Ā time Ā away Ā from Ā being Ā an Ā admin Ā & Ā whatnot Ā & Ā i Ā hope Ā ya'll Ā can Ā understand Ā that.
of Ā course, Ā if Ā ya'll Ā would Ā like Ā to Ā keep Ā in Ā contact Ā with Ā me Ā feel Ā free Ā to Ā send Ā an Ā IM Ā to Ā the Ā main Ā & Ā i'll Ā give Ā you Ā my Ā personal Ā or Ā my Ā d*scord Ā because Ā i Ā would Ā love Ā to Ā continue Ā to Ā build Ā friendships Ā with Ā each Ā & Ā every Ā single Ā one Ā of Ā you Ā ! Ā thank Ā you Ā for Ā making Ā the Ā past Ā little Ā over Ā two Ā months Ā some Ā of Ā the Ā best Ā months Ā in Ā my Ā life, Ā i Ā love Ā you Ā all Ā & Ā hopefully Ā will Ā be Ā seeing Ā you Ā again Ā in Ā the Ā future.Ā Ā
