Best health day in weeks, maybe months. I swear I have had good health days this year, but when I look back, I cannot remember them at all. For several days now, waking up and then getting up meant dealing with some very bad pain. Recently, it is also regular for me to end up hitting myself or yelling. It's the heart disease, even though you obviously don't want to believe that. Like, every day, I wake up hoping to have a good day, a great day, a perfect day: everyone tries for this, right? Like, we want life to be good. But if someone watched a video of me going through any random day of my life, especially recently, you would probably see me yelling or hitting myself, even biting myself... You would think: "this person is trying to have a bad time." You are not understanding what heart disease is. Like, stating that a problem exists, does not magically solve the problem. Imagine that you have some random person naked in the middle of random public. What if that person states: "I am naked." Like, and it's awkward for everyone around, some people call it a crime, that's beside the point, but the point is, it states what is happening, but does not change it. That person could say: "I am wearing clothes." But it is not the action of wearing clothes. Anyway, you really don't get what heart disease is, and the police are refusing to come to terms with the fact that they tortured a heart surgery recipient, and and falsely arrested and imprisoned one, too. They are off their fucking rockers, regularly terrorizing and threatening me. How pathetic do you have to be, to take an individual that has been closer to death than 90% of all 40 yr olds, and declare that they need more problems? These people are fucking insane. I saw at least 10 police cars today, and they know just what they are doing, and it is criminal. It is abuse of power, and literally shoving a sick person's face into the ground. They are disgusting, and it is horrific. And then there is the issue of adrenaline... Because every one loves adrenaline.. where is there any excitement about being alive? Any real goodness? Even if you fix the problem, and jail the people that tortured me, and remove my record, I don't think it fixes everything. Everything is stupid. Vshame on these assholes that have nothing better to do but terrorize a sick person. They are disgusting, and they will have to come to terms with the reality of their false paychecks.
