the fact that im adding non-emergency numbers for both cities to my contacts should be a red flag but something-something darkest before the dawn

i might be reading too far into it but for the first time in a very long time (since college, really) i’ve been actively seeking out new music. like finding an artist and listening through a couple of their albums top to bottom. i’ve basically been listening to my “best of 2016” spotify playlist the past six years. i had the thought that maybe it had to do with my headspace up until recently; i’ve been seeking familiar comfort while unhappy, but now that things have dramatically turned around, i’m suddenly seeing a lot of things in a new light. it’s really nice, although, a dark cloud looms; i feel myself bracing for the impact of all of this crashing down on me because it feels too good to be true. time will tell, but i have to stop letting myself focus on the tick of the clock, u kno what i mean……… lol