K-Spratt

A little over a year ago I couldn’t keep a fucking needle out of my arm if you paid me. Today I’m freed from that bondage and have managed to make big changes in my life. Today I no longer am bound by the chains that is heroin addiction.

I'm so fucking pathetic. So I got invited to this New Year's Eve dance and I can't even muster up the courage or the willingness to go. There's supposed to be 3,000 people there. I can't do that. Noooope. I literally hate myself so much and never get any attention or acknowledgement from anyone that being around that many people and still feeling alone would probably make me consider killing myself. I suck.

I can't fucking do this anymore. I'm done. Fuck everything.

It's Christmas and I wish I was fucking dead. I'm a pathetic fucking worthless piece of shit. My family fucking hates me. My "friends" don't talk to me. To top all that off I finally found something I enjoy and I fucking get made fun of for it. Why the fuck can't I have anything? God fucking damn it.

My new tattoo. Here's my rant real quick. I envy those of you who get to spend the holidays with your families, fucking cherish that shit dude. Many people take that shit for granted but you really don't know how lucky you are. I took it for granted and now I've fucked up so bad my family isn't even willing to fucking see me. Not at this time of the year, not at any time of the year. They're gone and not likely going to let me back in for a long time. Cherish every moment you get to spend with your loved ones because one day something may take that away from you like my addiction did me and then it's gone. Rant over. TL;DR cherish the time you got with ur fam.

Pretty much the truth. I don't really mean shit or matter to anybody. I always jump when someone texts me or messages me but a lot of time it feels like a one ended conversation because I'm pretty sure a lot of people don't actually want to talk to me.

"Sometimes I just wanna slit my wrist and end this bullshit. I feel like death is fucking calling me." -Biggie I'm tired. I'm just really tired. I'm ashamed. I hate myself. Some days I don't know why I even fucking bother. I'm good for nothing. Good for nobody. I ruined my family and I ruined so many peoples lives and my own. I just wish I could go to sleep one night and it'd all be over and I'd never wake up.

The world is so big and we're so small. Let's just appreciate this beauty.

When you do a thing, do it with all your might. Put your whole soul into it. Stamp it with your personality. Be active, be energetic, be enthusiastic and faithful, and you will accomplish your object.

I guess all some things are ever meant to be is a dream.

If you were my little girl, I'd do whatever I could do, I'd run away and hide with you. I love that you got daddy issues and I do too.

Saturday Nights 😍

They ask who I do it for, I say I do it for the fam.

You and I were made of glass, We'd never last.

My soil was always a part of me, shape me into what I am just like pottery.

Fucking relapsed. Almost 2 years without self harm and I blew it. Maybe if shit wasn't so fucking hard and I wasn't so alone. I'm tired of the fucking expectations put on me that I can't live up to. God fucking dammit I hate me.

I live a life most only dream of.