Show the World You're Enough

1. It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to cry for no particular reason. It’s okay to cry because your heart is shattered in a million pieces. It’s okay to cry because the whole world seems to be crumbling down. If you want to curl up in your bed, clutching that teddy bear that you’ve had since forever, and cry your heart out, do it. If you end up sliding down a wall in tears because it feels like your heart has been ripped out of your chest, it’s okay. It’s okay to cry. Just remember to pick yourself up. 2. The boy you fell in love with will break all his promises and break you. He will lie and tell you he loves you and then leave. He will leave with your beating heart in his hands and you will be left with nothing but a gaping hole in your chest. Throw away anything and everything that reminds you of him. Throw away the shirt that you stole from him. Burn all the pictures of you two. Delete his number. It will hurt. It will fucking hurt. You might end up choking on pills, crossing the street without checking for cars, drowning in alcohol, smoking until you can’t breathe, swallowing your tears, doing anything you can to forget him. But you will heal. One day you will see him and you won’t feel a thing, I promise. It will take time but you can do it. You can heal yourself. You will heal. 3. Flowers do not think of competing with the flower next to them, they just bloom. It doesn’t matter that she’s skinny, or that’s she’s beautiful or that she has amazing legs. You don’t have to be pretty like her. You don’t. You can be pretty like you. Stop thinking about all these flowers around you are beautiful and amazing and, just realize how beautiful you are, flower. 4. Don’t let thoughts consume you; spill them to someone before you drown in them. It can be anyone, your mother who watches you worriedly when you walk in with eyes filled with tears yet you say you’re fine, your best friend who notices how quiet you’ve been these last few days but doesn’t know why, that old lady that always sits on that bench that you always used to say hi to but not anymore, or even a stranger who knows nothing about you and doesn’t know how broken you are inside anyone. Just tell someone. 5. Your mother will become very important. She will be your rock. She will help you put on makeup. She will hold you tight when you’re sobbing because of a stupid boy, she will wipe away your tears when you’re done crying, she will bring you the cup of that you didn’t even know you needed it until she placed your favourite mug between your shaky hands. She will try to fix you. Let her. 6. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let pain make you cold. Do not let someone dim your light simply because it is shining in their eyes. 7. You cannot be fixed by the same person who broke you. If someone hurts you, if someone fucking breaks you, stay the fuck away from them, no matter how hard it is. Break off any toxic relationships, you don’t need shitty people to bring you down in this already shitty world. 8. Don’t let your happiness depend on anyone. What happens when they leave and you’re left with nothing? Make sure that your happiness lies in your hands and not with the boy with the beautiful eyes and the sweet words. 9. The girl you knew since you were 11 will one day stop talking to you. The boy you sat next to in math class for years will one day get up and sit somewhere else. The people you used to go out with will one day cancel plans because they “don’t feel like going out”, and then there will be pictures of them having fun without you. But that’s okay. People move on and things change. That’s okay. There are plenty of people in the world, so pick yourself up and find someone else. But please remember that a lot of people that you meet up until when you turn 21 are temporary. 10. Treat yourself the way you would a small child. Feed yourself and make sure you go outside. Put yourself to bed and sleep a lot. Don’t tell yourself things if you wouldn’t say them to a 6-year-old child. You are fragile. You are as fragile as eggshells, but you are strong. Remember that. 11. Breathe. Please remember to breathe.

I’m not sure which is worse: intense feeling, or the absence of it.